Alone Without You (Jack Gilinsky FanFiction)

Chapter 8

Sydney's POV

The doorbell rang and Aaron bolted down the stairs. I knew it was the pizza man, so I just stayed in my room with Jack. He laid on my bed so peacefully. I climbed onto the bed and laid beside him. Soft snores escaped his mouth, as he slept. I heard Aaron run up the stairs with food. He opened my door and saw Jack was sleeping. I got up slowly but right before I could jump off my bed, Jack grabbed my wrist. Aaron shut the door and left. I crawled back over to Jack's side and laid on the side of him.

"I'm not just hurt because you walked out with, Sam. My mom just died yesterday. She was always by my side for everything. You reminded me of her. You're so caring and sweet. I will never forget that time at the hospital when you stayed with me the whole time and made sure the nurses didn't hurt me." a tear fell from his huge brown eyes.

"Jack, I-I'm so sorry." I said softly.

I scooted closer to Jack and wrapped my arms around him. I felt him bury his face in my shoulder and cry harder. I rubbed his back slowly.

"Shhh, Jack, I'm here for you, okay?" I said, continuing to rub his back gently.

I felt like such an asshole now. I treated him horribly. If I had lost one of my close family members, I would bawl my eyes out too. I would want someone by my side to comfort me. Jack needed someone to talk to right now and I want to be that person. Yeah we've had our ups and downs, but that didn't matter right now.

Jack suddenly leaned all of his weight onto my shoulder. I held him and continued to rub his back. He started to calm down a bit. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tightly, not letting go. I smiled and spoke softly into his neck.

"I know what you need, you need food." I felt him giggle softly into my shoulder.

"You're too much." he said getting up from my bed.

He walked to the mirror and looked at his face. His smile faded away into a frown. I stayed on the bed and watched him. He looked down at his feet, then back at himself.

"Wow, I'm... ugh... mess." He said looking at his eyes.

I got up and walked over to him. I turned him around so he was facing me. He looked away from me so I couldn't see his eyes. I grabbed his hand and pulled him into my bathroom. I pointed to the little chair in my bathroom and told him to sit. He sat down and looked at me weird. I looked through the cabinets for eye drops and a towel. I found them and placed them on the counter.

"Thank you." Jack said, before I even did anything.

"You're welcome."

I rinsed the towel with warm water and washed his face. I washed all his tear stains away. I combed his hair back with my fingers and made it look better. I put some eye drops in his eyes to stop them from being bright red. I put everything back and when I got up Jack hugged me.

"You didn't have to do that for me, you know." he whispered into my neck leaving little down my neck.

I let out a quiet moan and he pulled me closer to him.

"Jack stop it." I tried to say seriously but it came out as a moan.

His hands started to move all over my body and it was making me uncomfortable. I quickly pulled out of his grip and ran to my bedroom. Jack came out of the bathroom and sat on the bed.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do that. I'm not use to being around a girl that's not going to use me for sex. All the girls I've been with live on one night stands and don't care about what other people think, like me, I guess you could say." he said sadly.

I looked down at my feet and then back at him. He starred into my eyes. I felt my heart melt a little. So he used girls for sex and abused ones to make himself look tough. Wow. I stood there motionless. Jack must of saw right through me because he instantly ran to my side, to comfort me.

"I'm so sorry, Sydney. I'm trying to be a better person, I promise." he said pulling me into another hug. "I just need you to help me be that better person."

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"I'll curl your hair!" Morgan yelled getting her curling iron ready.

I walked over to her and sat in front of her so she could curl my hair. I watched the girls do each other's makeup and hair. Homecoming was like a mini prom, minus the big dresses and fancy pictures.

We walked out of Maddy's room and walked down the stairs into the living room where everyone was waiting patiently. When we walked down everyone stopped talking and starred. I walked over to Sam who was in a suit. He looked adorable.

"You look beautiful." he said kissing my forehead.

"You look handsome" I said grabbing his hands and playing with them.

We got into the limo and drove off to the school. When we arrived there were people everywhere. I stayed close to Sam so no one would hurt me. We got inside and the gym was packed. I looked around and spotted Jack. We instantly made eye contact and I looked away. He was all alone in the corner of the gym. Sam noticed where I was looking and tensed up.

"Sam, calm down." I said running my hand down his chest.

A smirk spread on his face. My hand stopped right above his pants. He loosened up.

"You're such a tease." he said, poking my sides.

"I'm not ticklish, Sam." I said laughing at him.

"Wow, that's no fun." he said pouting.

We found an empty table and sat down. Jack kept looking at us and it was making me uncomfortable. Sam would casually look where I was looking and tense up. Why couldn't they just get along? It was bugging me to see them like this.

"I'll be right back." Sam said getting up.

"Ugh, okay."

I sat at the table all alone and waited for Sam to come back. People were dancing and having a great time. I saw Jack in the distance talking to a girl. Why did I care though, right?

It was almost time to go and Sam still wasn't back yet. It's been almost an hour. I could sense he was up to something. I got up and walked out of the gym. I was just about to walk home when I saw Sam, kissing a random girl. I starred for a few seconds and then ran with tears pouring down my face. I took my heels off and threw them as far as I could. I ran down the street with makeup all smudged across my face. I ran past my house and to a pond near my house. It was a big open field with a small pond, no one ever came to. I use to come here all the time when I was little to calm myself down or clear my mind. I sat on the damp grass not caring if I was going ruin my dress or not. I thought Sam and I were close but I guess not. Why didn't he just ask her to homecoming? Jack had asked me and I had to break his heart, again and say no because Sam had already asked me. More tears poured down my face. I heard someone yelling my name but I ignored it. It is probably some stupid trick playing with my mind. The person's voice got louder. It was pitch dark and I was in the middle of a field no one knew about, how could they find me? I looked at the opening in the woods that I came through. A dark figure stood there trying to find me. I stood still and they ran towards me. I quickly got up and ran further into the woods. My dress was ripping from running through branches and prickers. I turned around and noticed the person wasn't chasing me anymore. I sat on a rock and closed my eyes.

"Fuck my life." I said under my breath, before drifting into a deep sleep, in the middle of the woods.

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