trouble | steve harrington / billy hargrove

eight

sam sat on her bed. she was reading a novel that was assigned to her for a class, but she was actually processing none of the words. her thoughts ran between steve, billy, and even jack.

steve was such a great friend. she knew that she could on him, but her sometimes feelings made her feel strange.

jack was her other half. she hated that they both felt too afraid to apologize to one another. she missed him with every inch of her heart. she contemplated calling him, but that stupid small part of her brain convinced her not to.

then there was billy. the curly haired boy who gave her a real first kiss. one that burned so deeply within her still. the feeling of his lips on hers remained. despite the words he said that suggested he felt the same adrenaline rushing way she had, he acted like such a douche afterwards. those small things—whispering her name and those intense stares—were probably techniques he used to get girls wrapped around his little finger.

even so, she watched him for the next few days after the kiss and the taunting. he would return the stare sometimes and just smirk. she would imagine him saying something like look what i can do to you. or you really let me do that after a couple words? slut.

it's what everyone else was saying. it was frustrating that people took small things so seriously. although, sam knew how quick everything was happening.

the loss of her father was no excuse, but she always felt like he had been able to help her see what was right from wrong. maybe losing him kind of just opened something else in her. she wanted badly to distract herself from thinking of him. her mother tried her best, but even she knew the special bond they had was indescribable.

there was a small knock on her window that startled her and pulled her away from her thoughts. she stared at the closed window. another knock. she grabbed the bat from her closet and kept it close as she opened the blinds.

billy was leaning against the window. she dropped the bat and crossed her arms.

"hey," he said through the closed window.

"leave." she told him despite the sudden butterflies she was feeling. he had come to see her.

he has come to taunt you. the butterflies dimmed. she began to close the blinds.

"wait! let me in." billy sighed and rested his forehead on the window.

she sighed and opened the window open for him. he climbed in swiftly.

"what are you doing here, billy?" she closed the window and the blinds and faced him with her arms crossed.

"i came to see you."

she scoffed. she looked at the ground and shook her head.

"i can't get you off my mind."

she lifted her head to look at him. there he was. she was staring at the boy who seemed to genuinely care about things like kindness once more. all an act.

he moved closer to her. she backed away from him until she hit a wall.

"i don't know what it is about you, but you're driving me insane," he muttered in her ear. she got goosebumps all over her body. he pushed back a strand of her then caressed her chin with his forefinger. "i've tried and tried to stay away, but i can't any longer."

"billy," she muttered. it sounded more like a whimper than anything else . her own voice was betraying her.

"say my name again," he whispered only inches away from her lips.

she gulped. if she did she knew what he would do. the thought didn't disturb her like it should have. "billy."

"shit," he groaned. he pressed her against the wall and kissed her.

once again, her stomach exploded. she sighed into the kiss. her arms wrapped around his neck. he pulled on her thighs. she jumped and wrapped her arms around his waist without breaking the kiss. he moved them towards her bed and gently placed her on it.

she broke the kiss to stare at him. she was clutching his shirt with both her hands.  she knew this was a temporary thing. she understood that this wasn't to be taken as an i'll be kind at school type thing, but she needed it. she wanted to distract herself from her worries.

so, she pulled him in and kissed him throughout the whole night.