Toni's pov
It was the after Cheryl have revealed to me her biggest secret, a secret that has held us from each other for five months. As I sat here Cheryl still curled up in a ball safe in my arms as I thought about everything that had happened my mind a little clearer now, I thought about the things we had said, the thing we told each other as we sat at sweet water river a place we called 'our little spot' that now carried the memories of our first big mile stone 'I love you' the words I said to her, three little words that meant a thousand things and every one of them I felt towards the redhead that now starts to wake up as well, as I think what is next for us, but pushing this to one side because there was only one thing that mattered most to me "cher" I said softy "morning" she says yawning and I cant help but smile down "you okay?" "yeah, because I have you here" she replies as she cuddles further into me and I just hold her tighter because if I let her go I feels like I will lose her forever.
We must have fallen back asleep cause I felt Cheryl's tiny body jump in my arms as Betty lightly knocked on the door "Cheryl, Toni, breakfast is ready if yous are up for it" "yeah Betty we'll be down in a minute" Cheryl said back. "cher" "I love you... I know that I told you yesterday but im telling you today and every other day because I ment it, I do mean it" I say because I don't want her thinking I just said it because if the situation and didn't mean it "I love you too Toni" she says and we get up to head down stairs.
"morning girls" Alice says as we both sit down at the table "morning Alice" "how emm how are you Cheryl" betty says sitting down next to her "im okay" cher says offering her a small smile. after breakfast I asked to use the shower and betty offered to show me to the upstairs bathroom. "Toni, I know that she told you" Betty said once we were upstairs and I just looked at her "Betty I-" "Toni I know what your about to say, mom told me that found you in a state incase you hurt her even more. don't worry she's always like this after she tells someone" "what do you mean after she tells someone, who else has she told?" "you know that my mom is not her biological mom right?" "yeah" "well its to do with her 'real' mom, but anything else is for her to tell you" "I told her I loved her" I say to a now shocked Betty "please tell me you didn't just sat that for the sake of I-" Betty begins sounded angry at the thought of me playing with Cheryls emotions and lying to her "no Betty, I meant it, every word" "did she say it back?" she said calming back down "yeah and I told her this morning just so as she knows I wasn't just saying it and she said it back" "okay well good, look after her Toni" "I will trust me".
I got a shower and Cher went in next and I sat on her bed and waited for her to come out. "hey" she says as she walks into the room with wet hair and sits down on the edge of the bed next to me and I wrap an arm round her as she rests her head on my shoulder "you know I thought, that when I told you, you would have left" "cher. I don't know what I would do without you. I really mean that, you are the best thing that's ever happened to me, the thing im most proud about, I could never leave you, ever" "and that's why you're the best Toni" "I try" I joke and she laughs a little "I know now isn't the time to question you about anything but its playing over and over in my mind" I say as she lifts her head off my shoulder to look at me "betty said that you were always emotionally drained after you told someone, and I asked who else you had told. she just said that it was to do with you're mom, you're biological mom and anything else was up to you to tell me, I umm im not gonna make you tell me but if you ever wanna talk im always here" "Toni, my biological mom, so called 'real' mom she umm sh" she stopped and I put my hand on her back and she looked back up at me and smiled before continuing "after the pussy cats and Archie saved me I went back to veronicas and she told her mom and dad who asked me if I wanted to press charges and I said yes, so they phoned sheriff Keller. I stayed at veronicas that night and in the morning the lodges phoned my mom and she didn't believe me, she told them to retract the statement I made to Keller said I done something to provoke him that it was my fault" "cher I am.. so so sorry" "don't be TT I wasn't surprised my mother is a wicked, evil and twisted woman, unworthy of the air she breaths. TT when I lived at thorn hill my mother and father would abuse me, mostly my mother but my father wouldn't try and stop her, only JJ would try and protect me, even when she would trap me in a corner and repeatedly hit me with anything she had at hand, one of the many reasons he meant so much to me, he was the only one that protected me the only one that loved me.... until you" "cher I..... I have no words" there has been many times in my life were I have wanted to kill some one, horrible people but, this time I don't want to kill them , no I want to watch them slowly and painfully suffer, death is to good for people like nick St. Claire or Penelope blossom, Clifford got lucky. for the words I didn't have I try'd to make up for in actions, as I gentle pulled her head towards my lips and gentle kissed her forehead before pulling back slowly to look her in the eye "i'm not trying to take Jason's place, just continue the job that he stared before he was taken away, Cher I promise you that you will never have to worry about them again, i'll protect you like Jason did, like he would if he were still here" "TT I know that you're not trying to replace him, but I do want you to know you will never nor have you ever been below him" as words continue to fail me I move my hand to the back of her head to gently pull her if for a kiss on the lips this time, as our lips connect no longer follows her sobs of sadness and I pull her in to rest her head on my shoulder and wrap my arms round her rubbing her back to try and calm her.
It's official Cheryl Blossom crying is the most heart breaking thing I've ever heard, the most heart breaking thing I've ever saw. After Cheryl clamed down we got ready and decided to just stay in to day since we were both very emotionally drained.
I stayed with Cheryl that night again, we also decided we would see Archie and veronica tomorrow since we hadn't hung out with our friends in about a week and to be honest I think Cheryl could be doing with the company.
As we lay in bed, Cheryl laying her head on my boobs since it was her favorite thing to do I heard her begin to cry quietly while holding onto me, "cher, hey your okay, I got you" I said as I held her tighter if that was possible. after a while she began to calm down "sorry Toni I keep landing you with all my breakdowns" "babe you don't have to apologize okay, I love you, and you have been through something awful and are currently reliving it which cant be fun, plus your my girlfriend, its all part of the job" I say and she laughs a little "your the best" "I know" I reply and she giggles "get some sleep cher, these last few days have been exhausting and you deserve a lie in tomorrow" "mmm sounds good" she says cuddling even further to my boobs and I kiss her head "goodnight babe" "night babe, love you" "love you more" I reply. I wait till I know she's sleeping again before I can sleep since the thought of her being awake and crying on her own breaks my heart.
