The Cancer Girl

Chapter 11

I guess that I though that if I stayed in my room long enough, it would be the equivalent of being drunk and forgetting everything. It turns out I was wrong. Everyone kept coming into my room, to get me to talk to him. Rose said that he doesn't know the intensity of what he did because he doesn't know how much we meant to each other. But he just knew my name out of no where, so he would of have to known I meant something.

Tyler and Mark came in to tell me that he was starting to remember. He remembered the day he was diagnosed. I almost hope he doesn't remember any more, so there can be a clean break and nothing more.

Spencer wouldn't have to know about our races and games other than the pictures we gave him. Maybe that's the way it was going to be. I wish I could go back to and tell the girl who saw Spencer at her first day at the hospital, that it was all gonna end and I shouldn't waste my time.

I heard my door click open and I got ready to yell at Spencer but it wasn't him. It was Angel. I had a feeling I was in for a big pep talk.

"Listen darling," I was right. "You can't stay in here forever." She might have been right.

"He is literally camping out side my door and until he leaves I'm not." Maybe I was being harsh but maybe I wanted him to hear me.

Angel tilted her head towards the sort to see if he heard. Nothing.

Than the door flys open. "I remember you know? I remember my first day here and I remember your first day here. I knew than what I felt for you and now I have to live it all over again. Me preying at you while you just want to be friends and I'm sorry I didn't have enough courage to tell you right than and there." Wait till he gets to the memories where I turn him down and he goes into a coma.

"Well I'm glad you didn't cause clearly this was a mistake." I held in the tears making sure he wouldn't break me but I was already screaming.

"You love me, and I love you and I didn't have the memories to not know to cheat on you."

"What does that even mean?!? Do you just cheat on everyone?" I was standing in front of him and Angel walked out. Nurses aren't suppose to leave us alone but she knew.

"I cheated because I was scared of the feeling I was having. I couldn't explain them, I didn't even know you!" He was yelling too.

"Well now you will have all your memories back and you will figure it out." He made me so made.

He didn't say anything back. We both just stared at each other with faces of anger. We were just mad and staring into each other faces. He stared to lean in for a kiss and I almost let him but I was to mad to let him make me feel good. I pushed his shoulders back and left the room.

It was my room but I hadn't left it for a while so it was good to leave. I walked down to Rose's room and walked straight in on her making out with Louis but I didn't care. I just kept walking to her couch and layed down.

"You wanna talk?" Rose asked but I just shook my head.

Louis left a few minutes later and Rose said I could stay, so I did. I stayed and stared and the night sky out the window all night.

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I woke up on Rose's couch. I was shivering and there was no blankets in sight. I looked over and saw the peaceful Rose, snuggled up in her bed. I stole a blanket from her bed and fell asleep again.

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I woke up violently with Rose Shaking me.

"Wake up! You have to see this!" I didn't understand what could be so great early in the the morning. But I got up my ways and followed her back to my room.

I walked in and saw a room glowing with red. There were red rose pedals all over the floor. The windows were covered with red tissue paper, which was what was causing the red glow.I walked over to my bed and saw 'I'm sorry' wrote out in chocolate.

I looked over at Rose asking her who did this. She shook her head, not knowing.

Spencer came in behind her, his face was red. "I remember when I first loved you." This was him. "You were in your room and I could hear you through the vent, but you didn't know. You weren't say anything important but It was amazing to hear you brain work. I came into your room once you stop and you were asleep. You look so peaceful and unharmed, I'm so sorry I took that away from you." He looked down in shame. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know if it was time to forgive him.

His face was soft and delicate. It was something I saw in the old Spencer, something I loved. My mine was turning in a million directions, Tyler, Louis, and Mark all piled into the room, staring at me, looking for a answer. I didn't have one.

I push through them, past Spencer not making eye contact.