The Dark and Wonderful mind of a Emotionally Troubled Soul

This Feeling

I know I did nothing wrong, I approached the situation as any normal person would have approached it. But then why? Why do I feel so horrible? Why do I feel so devastated? So lost and hurt? I know how I felt about what had transpired was right and I was just in what I asked of her but then why do I feel like I am the one who is at fault? She made her choice and walked away from all we had planned, all that we had set in motion together, so then why do I feel like I am the source of all this wreckage and pain? Then why do I feel the need to self destruct in the worst way possible? Why do I feel hopeless and lost? Why do I feel so lower than the farthest depths of any ocean when I see her or think of her? Why does she still to this very moment still haunt my heart and soul? Even in this aftermath of an event that has happened I still have to find a way to move forward even though I still hear her lovely voice saying those magical words that made my day so much brighter. Though I still desire her deeply and truly with all my being I know it will never be reality again.