The Dark and Wonderful mind of a Emotionally Troubled Soul

My World, My Love, Her Betrayal

I gave all I could to you my dear, my time, money, all of my effort, my heart and soul. I did more for her than I have ever done for s person ever in my life.........I told her things I've never told a single person in my life, not even my best friend of twenty three years, I got down on one knee and asked her to marry me, that I even considered marrying when I never thought I would want to ever remarry and not only did she just tear me down lower than dirt and to a point where I didn't care what happened to me but come to find out I wasn't the only one she was and has been playing like that....I was willing to move with her and start all over far away from my family and friends.......I started paperwork in order to get a house for me and her that we looked at together and talked about our future together in, she claimed my son as her own, she talked about and bragged about him like her own son to others, said she wanted a child with me, I looked at colleges, a career path for me after I got out so I could support her in whatever she wanted to do with her life.......and she did what she did....she complained about our sex life to her ex, told him I was just a way out of her shitty situation, that I wasn't her type cause I was "emotional", said all of these things to her ex as they "joked" about always being down to lay with each other in bed as we did so many times, talked about what they missed about each other in the aspect of their prior relationship, what they missed sexually about each other, talked about maybe being together later down the road if possible. And when I found out I got made the bad guy, that I needed to stop being a bitch, man up and deal with it as she defended herself and this other man against me as he stood right next to her looking me in the eyes, she left me, she abandoned me, she's the one who walked away from what we talked about and what I was working so hard to build so why? Why do I miss her and still love her......