The Paradox of her Heart

Worried

"Good work Ms. Beaumont. You have presented a fabulous demo version, I look forward to the main application. "

"Thank you Mr. Adelson."

Today was a bizarre day. Adonis has been gone to Shanghai to conduct some business right after the day we kissed in my room. It has been three weeks since and I have not heard a word from him. We definitely did not discuss the kiss. But I did promise myself that I am not going to judge him anymore. I will treat him like a normal person and see how things are going to be like. It's not like I had any other option. My hormones go berserk anytime he is near me, and despite everything that I keep saying to myself, I ultimately kiss him back with all that I have. So instead of hating myself everytime I do that , I just decided that I will treat him as normal and not as a rich Adonis or as my dream-come-true Adonis either. I am just going to go with the flow. If something happens between us, I will avoid thinking about our status difference. If something serious really happens between us then he is going to solve this status - difference problem, I do not care how. But I do not think it will happen. It is pointless thinking about my pitiful life turning into a fairytale. He is just a rich man for whom I am nothing more than a challenge. If something happens between us, I would be left brokenhearted and he would be able to move on. That man has been affecting me severly. If I have to keep my heart safe then I must avoid him. But  there is still a part of me that would like to explore this fairytale option. I had decided that I am going to avoid him because when we are together, little hearts explode all around us. But fate probably had better ideas. He went abroad and we are apart ever since. This distance between us definitely depressed me initially but now it feels like I have finally come into terms with the fact that he was nothing more than a silly crush. I just hope that this is not an illusion that will disappear into thin air in front of Adonis. I just hope it's as true as the  existence of water.

But something strange has been going on. Today Adonis' s father Mr. David Adelson had come to the office and was going through everything that his son has been managing. He even asked me to present a demo of the application that we have been working upon, which I just got done with. Rumor is that he has lost a very important deal and that his Shanghai trip was a fail. While rumours are supposed to be lies, I actually believed this one. His secretary Felix has already joined the office today but he is not back. And unfortunately there is a tiny part of me that is worried about him. I did a detailed search on him and found out that till date there has not been a single deal that he has lost. And the news of him losing this deal has already given rise to a lot of gossips around the workplace.  There has not been a single article about it, but all the senior staff members have informed some or the other person that a Korean company was able to get the deal. And that Adonis has been missing in action ever since. People even said that Adonis had asked Felix to join from today and then he disappeared from the airport, on the very day of their reporting.

Out of curiosity and restlessness, I finally decided to ask about it to Felix but he just said that it has been a hard time for Adonis and that presently he has no idea about his whereabouts.And unfortunately for me, I am worried about him. Me getting depressed about his absence or arguing with myself about my feelings for him was a better way to pass my time then being worried about him. Hearing Felix say that worried me so much that I was having a fit of restlessness throughout the day. I could not concentrate and having Mr. Adelson in Adonis' room next door kept me worried that I was going to get caught not working and get punished for it. When the clock finally struck 5:00, I was so worried, I could not even breathe properly. I immediately shut down my computer and left for the day.

The next two days went by me calling him every time he came across my mind, which was often and him not picking up his phone. He did not even bother to drop a text message for me. I was not even able to work properly, neither was I able to sleep properly. I am ashamed of myself to admit that I have even lost my appetite.   
" What the hell are you worried about you fat ass? " Ella asked.
Ella has come back from Paris and Eanna has gone to enjoy her two months long honeymoon. I could not be a part of her wedding but I am going to enjoy the second reception that they are planning to throw here in New York after they come back from their honeymoon. But that is far away in time to occur and the thought is not exciting enough to keep my worries away. But I can definitely use that as an excuse in front of Ella.
" I was just thinking what I am going to buy for Eanna's wedding present. "
" But you have already given her wedding present. "
" I am talking about the reception. "
" And you are so out of ideas that it has left you completely unproductive at work, sleepless and has even ruined your appetite ? You think Imma fool ? Tell me, is there a guy you should tell me about ? "
" No, ofcourse not. Why would a guy be responsible for my inability to work ?"
"Oh there definitely is a guy. Tell me who has left you that affected ? Is it Felix or is it that Liam who has been working round the clock to get the client's work done ? He probably spends half of his time in or outside your office."
"Why would you think any of them would bother my mental abilities so drastically ? "
"Well they both look good, they are hardworking and they are brilliant . And oh they are the people who spend quite some time with you in your office. "
" When the hell did you see Felix inside my office ?"
" He is there most of the time."
"No. He is the boss's secretary. Why would he be in my office ? I spent half of my time in his office. Or should I say his boss's office. "
"Isn't it the same thing, him spending time in your office or you doing that in his office ?"
" But I am not spending time with him. Wait, are you I interested in him ? Do you even realise that you are acting like a jealous bitch right now !"
"Hah, I am not."
"You are. "
"Not"
"Are"
"Not"
Knock. Knock.