Chapter 9
Already Gone
"Look at that fat ass." I heard some girls laughing at me. "Wow you'd think she has big boobs but there probably fat-rolls." They laughed again, "she probably wears baggy clothes to hide the fat. What a fake bitch." I just walked back to my table and sat with Chandler.
"What up babe?" He said, clearly he could tell that my eyes where red. "I-it's nothing, just those girls.." I said cuddling up into his shoulder. "What did they say?" He said pulling me even closer to him. "I- Uh, nevermind.. I just wanna go home." I said looking up to his beautiful blue eyes. "We could ditch the last four periods and go to my house.." He said smirking while running his hand up and down my thigh. "Hell yeah." I said walking away with him.
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"So what do you wanna do?" I asked Chandler. "This.." He said grabbing my face and pulling me into a long kiss.
His hands slowly found there way to my hips and he grasped my butt. "Chandler!" I screamed from the shock. He started pushing me over to his bed until we were having a full make out session. Chandler slowly started to pull my shirt off. "Your so beautiful." Chandler said admiring my body.
I can't do this! Yes you can. Your 17. Yeah but I don't wanna be a mom. Use a condom. That doesn't always work. Then pull away from this wonderful moment. I can't.
By this time Chandler had already had my shirt and his shirt off. Including our shoes. He slowly snaked his hands down to my jeans. And started tugging at the button.
Just then his door flew open.
"CHANDLER WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I looked up to see his mom. Fuck.
I quickly got up and got dressed. "Chandler get this whore out of our house! NOW!" His mom screamed. I ran out followed by Chandler. "Emily! Emily wait!" He screamed. I came to a complete stop. "Don't -listen -to -her." He panted. "I'll call you later Chandler. I have to go. I love you!" I said kissing his face and walking off.
What the fuck just happened?
"Emily please come here." I heard my mom yell from the living room.
Shit.
"Yes ma'am?" I said trying not to sound to rude.
"Hunny, why did you skip school today?" Crap.
"Uh.. I needed, time away. Something came up." I stuttered.
"Well please just let me know next time. Oh and, your failing science and history. You need to make up some work for them. Don't want you to turn out like those people you were with and not graduate." She said giggling.
"Is this funny to you? Just because they didn't live in some 5-Star house doesn't mean they where a failure." I said harshly.
"No hunny I didn't mean it like that-" I cut her off.
"You know what save it. Is that what you think of me?! You think I'm going to be some screw up! Well guess what.. Your dead wrong. At least I didn't get pregnant in high school." I yelled at her starting up to my room when she stopped me.
"I got a call from Gina, and we both agreed that it would be best if you and Chandler had some time away from each other." She said with a weak smile.
"You can't keep me from the one I love." I said tearing up.
"I'm sorry. But I can't have you getting pregnant either. I don't want you to turn out like me." She said walking away.
I ran up to my room and started balling. "IM NEVER GOOD ENOUGH!" I screamed at the mirror. I threw off my jacket and looked at my many scars. "Just one more wont hurt.." I said slowly slipping the blade across my skin. I winced in pain as the blood dripped down my arm. I then moved to my thighs. After I was done I cleaned up and looked at myself in the mirror.
"Mistake.."
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I woke up to little pitter patters on my window. I looked at the time, 2:34.
I got up in only pjs and saw that Chandler was throwing little rocks up. I opened it and he smiled brightly.
"Hey sunshine." He said climbing up to my window. "What are you doing, we are supposed to be separated." I said kissing his cheek. "Come on, you know I like breaking the rules." He said smirking. "Get in here it's freezing out there." I said pulling his in through the window and closing it. "Woah, I like what I see." He said smirking. Crap. I just forgot that I was wearing a sports bra and pajama pants. "Shit." I said turning around and looking for a shirt. "Nooo... I love seeing you like this." He said pulling me into a hug. "Fine but I'm tired so don't try anything." I said kissing his clerk slightly then going and laying down in my bed. "Okay I'll go then." He said sounding depressed. "No.. Wait uh, can you stay?" I asked patting a spot next to me.
He smirked and threw off his shirt reliving his six-pack. Then I felt a dip into the bed and an arm around me. "Goodnight sunshine." He said kissing my cheek.
