All I want is to be happy.
I'm so tired of being sad all the time. Nothing ever happens the way it should. Everything goes all wrong. I sit in my room alone all day and contemplate my mistakes. I contemplate my regrets and fears. I try to figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Why do I fuck everything up? I am constantly losing friends and pushing people away. I hurt myself and others and can't seem to stop. No matter how hard I try. Maybe I should just give up. End it all. Then everyone would be happier. Nobody would miss me. Everything will go on as usual. School will be a better place for everyone else. Nobody will miss me. I can hear them now saying "de was a lost cause anyway" "I never liked her" "I only put up with her cause I felt sorry for her" "who was she anyway".
