The Truth of Noah Arbell

Chapter Thirty One

"Noah, answer the goddamn question!" My father yelled as he threw my body down onto the bed.

"I was just thinking about it." I sighed.

"No, you weren't, people don't think by doing. If you were thinking about it, there wouldn't be a noose on the floor!" He exclaimed.

"Dad, I wasn't going to do anything." I sighed.

"How and why the hell should I believe you!?" He asked.

"Because I'm your son!" I yelled.

"Well, obviously not! My son would never do this!" He yelled.

I felt so bad and so upset. I can't believe my father would ever say that about me. I tried my best to contain myself.

"I'm sorry for mourning the death of my sister!" I exclaimed.

"I get it Noah, but the fact that you would even consider it is what pisses me off the most. She's dead, taking your life isn't going to help!" He explained.

I became teary eyed as I stared at him angrily.

"You say that I was trying to get her back, but maybe I was trying to join her." I sighed.

"Well it was a shitty move on your part!" He yelled.

I sat up and glared at him.

"I don't think you know how fucking difficult this is for me." I sighed.

"For you? What about your mother and I? We have spent countless hours waking up to you, helping you and watching you grow, and you think that I don't know what you're going through?" He asked.

"You were never there, you care about work more than us." I scoffed.

"My work is what keeps this house standing." He exclaimed.

"Your work is what's tearing this family apart!" I yelled.

A stinging sensation traveled across my face as I stared at my father. He had slapped me, right across the face.

"You think that I'm the one tearing this family apart, take a look in the mirror you ungrateful little bitch." He scoffed as he stood up and stormed out of my room.

I stared at my mother who stood in shock in the doorway. I held my cheek as tears fell down my cheeks. I sobbed and my mom quickly rushed over to me. She sat down next to me and tried to comfort me. I stood up and stormed out. I grabbed my school bag and walked out of the house. I wiped my tears and continued to walk.

I came up to the school and tried to put on a brave face. It was now ten and everyone was in their second class. I had science now and I was not feeling ready to face people. I walked into the school and made my way to class. I passed a bunch of people in the halls and I tried my best to hide my face. I walked into class and casually walked over and sat next to Alex. Class had just started so I wasn't late or anything.

"Why are you here?" He asked slightly surprised.

"I decided to come." I shrugged.

I wasn't going to tell him about what had happened, the last thing I need is for him to sympathize with me more.

"Well, it's good to have you back." He smiled.

After everything that had happened in the past twelve hours I felt like I couldn't tell anyone about anything. This whole experience has ruined my life but I'm sure it'll impact it for the good at some point, I mean it has to, right? Soon enough class was over and Robyn met up with me in the halls.

"How are you doing?" She asked.

I shrugged.

"You don't seem good." She sighed.

"I'm fine." I scoffed as I looked away.

"Noah, please don't be like that. I just want to know what's going on." She sighed.

"Robyn, I'm sorry. I just don't want to talk about it." I shrugged shaking my head.

Holding back my tears way hard, but I managed.

"Alright, well just know that I'm here for you." She nodded.

"I know, thank you." I sighed.

It was now lunch and I sat with Alex. Him and I decided to sit at a bench in the halls today so he could ask questions and just so I could be away from everyone else.

"So how are you feeling now?" He asked.

"Honestly I don't know what to do, I'm lost at sea. Like everything I knew was just suddenly taken away from me." I shrugged.

"That's deep." He sighed.

I nodded.

"And why did you decide to come to school, because I know you didn't want to." He shrugged.

I sighed.