A Fresh Start

Girls Chase Boys

When I woke up on Sunday morning I was immediately filled with happiness. Everything was working out, I couldn't even bring myself to care that it was totally cliche to work out your love life on a ski lift. My life was starting to feel like a romance novel and the worst part was that I absolutely loved it.

As I packed up my things to go home I looked back on last night, the way that Sebastion had looked at me, it made me feel warm all over. I knew it was going to be hard to keep this a secret, but I also knew that it was undoubtedly worth it.

The bus ride home was uneventful, I spent most of the ride secretly texting Sebastion. It was funny how talking about the most arbitrary things with him seemed exciting. 

Sebastion: Seriously, you hated skiing?

Me: Yes, didn't my screams cue you in?

Sebastion: I assumed they were screams of joy

Me: Just when I was starting to think you had a brain...

Sebastion: You know it was pretty stupid to start dating someone "without a brain"

As I read Sebastion's last text I was overcome by a fit of laughter. I was so overcome with happiness that the joke was able to send me over the edge. My laughter eventually woke Janie up, ending my conversation with Sebastion. 

When we finally pulled up in front of the school I was immensely relieved. Janie had spent the remainder of the ride telling me all about her exploits with the boy from the ski lodge, What was his name? Something like James or John. Anyways, it had been a long hour and a half. I walked outside and looked up at the sky, relieved to see that it wasn't raining, after grabbing my duffle I made my way over to the parking lot. As I passed by the rear end of the bus I felt a hand on my arm.

"Marie, come here." I felt my heart speed up at the sound of Sebastion's voice. He pulled me behind the bus where we had privacy. Was it bad that I really wanted to kiss him? Was it normal to feel this excited about someone's presence? I decided to let the matter go and just enjoy the moment for as long as it lasted.

"What are you doing Sebastion?" I asked curiously, wondering why we needed to be out of sight. I looked up at him and saw he was running his hand through his hair, that combined with the hesitant look on his face made my heart drop. Oh god, did he already decide this was too much work? Why did I let him in again, I should have kept my distance. My disastrous train of thought was interrupted by Sebastion's worried voice.

"Whoa, Marie, are you okay, you're pale as a sheet. What happened? Did I-" I cut him off before he could get any further.

"Are you breaking up with me." I looked down at the ground, hoping to prolong my state of happiness for as long as I could. I felt tears brimming in my eyes and angrily squeezed them closed.

"Marie, look at me." I felt Sebastion gently tilt my face up to look at him. "I pulled you back here so I could ask you out." My eyes widened in shock and relief flooded my body. "Marie you have to know something. I am so sorry for what I put you through I wish I could take it back, but I'm the most sorry about losing your trust. I need you to know that I'm not your parents, I'm not going to leave you, I love you too much to ever do that to you." Tears started rolling freely down my face, I had so many emotions running through my body, I didn't know what to say. I made a split-second decision and closed the space between us, meeting Sebastion's warm lips with my own. As always I felt the sparks that accompanied his touch, but there was more there than just lust and desire, I felt an unexplainable warmth, it was a feeling I hadn't felt since my parents died. I felt safe, I felt really and truly loved.