Me and Jimin talked a little about what we were up to.
"Sooo yeah. That is what I've been up to these past few weeks." I said and smiled.
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He just smiled and tried to cover his face.
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"Mr. Park, Don't cover your good looking smile." I said and laughed.
We laughed, smiled, and just respected each other.
I actually felt happy.
After hanging out with Jimin, we said our goodbyes.
"Thank you for inviting me Jimin." I said and smiled.
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He smiled and looked down.
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"No, Thank you for giving me an opportunity." He said.
I went up to him and hugged him.
"Well, see you later." I said.
We then left to our different paths.
When I arrived to my company, I walked straight to my studio.
"I don't know what to do." I said as I placed my head on the table.
My thoughts were all around the place.
I took out a pen and a notebook and started writing.
"Way up! I'm goin' way up! Deuces to haters 'cause my fingers raised up, they goin' way up Forever, will never, I never, gave up, I'm goin' way up All of them bringin' me down, but I'm way up - I'm goin way up! Straight up, to the sky" I said while writing it down.
*Knock knock*
I quickly closed my notebook and stood up.
I started walking toward the door and opened it.
"Oh, Simon! Come on in." I said.
He smiled and walked inside.
I closed the door.
"I haven't seen you in a while." He said as he sat down.
"What have you been up to?" He asked me.
I smiled and sat next to him.
"Well, I had to work on multiple albums these past few months." I said.
He nodded.
I started thinking.
Should I talk to him about my struggles?
"You can tell me anything, I'm your best friend." He said as if he read my mind.
I sighed.
"You know, I keep lookin' in the mirror like...." I started saying.
"Lookin' in the mirror like - why do I just hate myself?" I said as I looked at the ground.
"I keep lookin' in the mirror like..."
"Lookin' in the mirror like - I can't even find myself" Tears started running down my cheeks.
" I can't find, no, I can't find me." I said to him.
"You shouldn't hate yourself. You are a wonderful woman. How many times do I have to tell you that." He said as he pulled me closer to him and hugged me.
I started crying in his chest.
"Why can I just be a strong woman? I'm to sensible. I'm just scared of myself." I said.
"What happened?" He asked me as he rubbed my back.
"I'm just afraid of the world. Why can I just be free? I'm too stressed." I said to him.
He cleaned my tears and smiled.
"You are going to prove the world that you are capable to do anything." He said.
I smiled at him.
"Hey can you read a song that I'm working on?" I asked him while cleaning my tears.
"Hwasa, you should take a break. You work too much." He said.
" I know, but I put life into this pen, so when I write, I'm puttin' light and I rewrite myself again." I said.
I stood up and walked towards my table.
I grabbed my notebook and started walking back.
I flipped through the pages.
"Here." I said as I handed him the book.
"We shine - just like the sun gets
Remind me that I need to run less From my insecurities holdin' me back And that's makin' me feelin I'm one breath Away from saying I'm calling it quits When both of my feet feelin' heavy, it gets To thinkin' that I got the weight of the world On both of my shoulders or will it unfurl? You see, I'm flawed as they come, huh? It's odd to forget where you from, huh I'm asking myself: Hwasa, when did you change? Was it when you believed that they won, huh? But I'm goin' up in the sky, high, I'm tired of livin' that 9-5 I'm aimin' for higher, I'll never retire, I'm givin' a riot, no closed eyes When the cards down, I will never back down Put us on the map, it's a wrap when I'm back now." He read.
He smiled.
"Im tired of people believing that I'm always okay. I wrote this song 'cause I want my life to change." I said as I sighed.
"This is going to be the next chapter of my life." I said.
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