Gaslight 1 + 2 |Park Jimin & Hwasa|

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Hwasa POV:

Time passed and we started walking back towards the company.

"Thank you Jay for inviting me." I said and smiled.

"I really needed a distraction out of this world." I said and sighed.

"No problem." He said as he brushed my hair.

We stayed silent for a while until we arrived to the company.

Jay opened the door.

"Ladies first." He said.

I smiled.

"What a gentlemen." I said as I giggled.

He laughed.

We walked inside the company.

Should I ask him?

"Umm, Jay?" I asked him.

He looked at me.

"Can you call everyone and meet me in the dancing studio?" I asked him.

"Everyone?" He asked.

"AOMG and H1GHR gang." I said.

"I.....I have to say something." I said.

"Is everything okay?" He asked me concerned.

I nodded.

"Yeah, I just have to say a few things." I said.

He wasn't buying it.

"See you in a bit." I said as I started walking towards my studio.

I walked inside my studio and closed the room.

"Am I really going to do this?" I mumbled as I pulled my hair.

"Okay....Okay.....Ahn Hyejin, you got this." I said.

I waited for a few minutes to prepare myself.

I got out of my studio and started walking towards the dancing studio.

I took a deep breath and slowly opened the door.

"Hey guys." I said smiling.

"Noona!!!" Haon said as he hugged me.

"Awww, my baby missed me." I said as I hugged him.

I looked around and saw everyone.

"Wow, no person is missing." I said.

"Hey Hwasa, are you okay?" Gray asked.

I nodded.

"I am. I just have to talk you guys." I said.

"Take a seat, It's going to be somewhat long." I said and laughed.

They sat down.

"Don't tell me your leaving the label" Hoody said.

"Oh hell nah. You guys are my family. AOMG and H1GHR gang till I die." I said.

"But, I did gather you guys since y'all are my family. " I said.

" I came here to apologize." I said.

" Why are you apologizing? You haven't done shit." Simon said as he stood up.

"Calm down Dominic, sit down. I'll explain why." I said.

He sat back down.

I smiled.

" I came here to apologize to everyone. I'm sorry for keeping a lot of secret from you guys. Today, I'm going to tell you guys who is Ahn Hyejin." I said.

"You don't have to do it." Ph-1 said.

" I have to, it's been killing me inside for so long." I said.

"I have to tell you guys about my background." I said.

" Do you guys remember the albums I wrote?" I asked.

They all nodded.

"Okay. I wrote the album 'cause I want my life to change. So many people ask me whats a freestyle to me. I been doing as a 6 year old. Thinkin' on my own 2 feet, survival pick & go. Pick a role - you can be the swimmer or a sunken soul. I was a 6 year old without a father figure role. No silver spoons or dinner rolls, so will you fold or will you go? Pretend to sing like figaro, my family still invisible. When you the spittin' image of a person that you hate. Makes sense I'm spittin' images of dawn that never breaks. Nirvana never waits, I was a pawn of bitter fate. That spawned from inner hate, I never wanted to be great. I study my mother wonder how she holds this family. That minimum salary, stretched as much as it can be. She stressed but keeps that shit from me, I'm just tryna fit in, see I crave for that acceptance like it validates my sanity. I wrestle with affirmations, settle for masking faces." I said.

"Like I said to Simon, At school, I had reduced lunches while my mama skip her lunchtime. 9 to 5 minimum wage, she at the bus line. Here I am, filling a page, waiting to bust rhymes . 'Til I'm nearing the day I'm getting cosigned. Snare rolls and punchlines to pay rolls and punch time. We take shows like crunch time, we braved those like front lines. My life on these lines 'cause we never had lifelines. And these days I'm scared of what might go through my mind. Type to make your face form in ways you never made. Born in Jeonju-si, thorns couldn't break away. Or am I just a break away? From being center stage from off the page or will I fade away? I never been the type to say I'm scared of what I have to face." I said as my voice cracked.

"Today I'm doin okay. Sometimes I'm suicidal. I am my own worst enemy, I am my biggest rival." I said as I looked at them.