A few days passed and I had my second comeback 'Maria' with rbw entertainment.
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After a long day of performing, I just went straight to my place.
Right now, I was just laying in the couch in my apartment.
As I was about to fall asleep, I heard my phone ring.
I lazily grabbed my phone and looked who it was.
Wheein is calling....
I quickly answered.
"Hey Wheein." I said as I yawned.
"Hey.." She mumbled.
I quickly sat up.
"Are you okay?" I asked her.
"I know....you told me not to call...." She said as I heard her sigh through the phone.
"It's 2am and....I really miss you." She finished saying.
There was silence.
"I haven't been able to sleep." She said.
"My baby, keep on trying to sleep. It's very important for your body." I said.
"I keep trying and.....I don't... I know, it's stupid." She said and laughed.
"Wheein, it is not stupid." I said concerned.
"Your going to wake up tomorrow and think, "what a dumbass"... I'm sorry." She said.
"Baby, what happened?" I asked her.
"Nothing....nothing really." She said.
"Tell me please..." I tell her as I got up from my couch.
As I was still on the phone with her, I grabbed my bag, keys, and some snacks.
"It's...going to sound so stupid." She said.
"Come on, i'm all ears." I said as I turned off all the lights and headed out of the apartment.
"I feel like..I'm not good enough." She said as her voice cracked.
"I'm not good enough for anyone." She said.
"Hey, hey. Don't talk about yourself like that. I know people get self-conscious sometimes but it seems like it's more than that" I said as I got inside of my car.
"You know, come to think of it. You have seemed pretty out of it this week." I said as I turned on the car.
"Is that what has been bothering you?" I asked her.
I put her on speaker mode and I started to drive to her place.
"I really want to get rid of these thoughts." She said.
I hear crying.
I bit my lips.
I've never seen this part of herself.
"I really hate it." She said.
"I wish I was stronger. But here I am, being weak." She said.
"Please don't tell Solar and Moonbyul." She said.
"Wheein...don't cry...It's okay to let your emotions out. I promise, I won't tell them." I said.
"It's my fault...." She said and laughed.
She started to worry me.
" It's my fault that my dad left.....And why I try so hard to hide this pain. I search, but I can't ever find. Can't seem to leave my past behind'Cause all the ones I hope would stay, are all the ones that fade away" She said.
"I shed so many tears,so many times,so many lies." She said.
"My anxiety is breaking me, it kills me. I'm living in a world so fake, I lost touch of the real me. I had to take a look back, just to ask me if I'm still me.I can't take it no more, I just can't take it no more. I can't smile like I'm okay, I just can't fake it no more. I can't act like I've been happy and complacent no more. 'Cause every time I try to change, it is the same as before. I'm drinking till all my feelings just fade away again. I'm trying not to break down but I just can't hide this pain. I saw myself in the mirror and I'm just not the same." She said as she started to break down even more.
Good thing I arrived to her place.
I parked my car, grabbed my stuff, and quickly got out and started heading over.
"Listen to me baby..." I started saying.
I reached to her place.
"Angel, I'm outside. Let me in." I whispered.
She hanged up.
I see the door opening.
"Hwasa.." She said as she hugged me tight.
"I'm scared." She said as she started crying.
"Love, i'm here....I'll always be here with you." I whispered in her ear.
We both walked inside the room and headed to her room.
We both laid down in her bed and cuddled with her.
"I love you to the moon and back" She whispered as she hugged me tightly.
"I love you too." I replied back and smiled.
"Look, I appreciate all the times you were there for me. Every time I stress out and we talked it's like therapy. Jung Wheein, you take the pain away with nothing but a sentence. Even when it's hard to smile, you manage to make me laugh." I said.
"And I'm sorry for being a horrible person." I whispered as I played with her hair.
"Sleep well.." I said as I placed a kiss in her forehead.
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Hey guys! I just wanted to create this chapter because I really wanted to include the friendship Hwasa has with Wheein. Also......cuz I love my baby Wheein. SHE DESERVES MORE LOVE PERIODT.
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HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD HWASA'S COMEBACK?!?! She snatched my wig.
