Kendall -a few hours later-
"you look like such a mom right now." taylor smiles. i roll my eyes.
"she does. hair all tied back, baby asleep in arms, burp cloth." jeanne says. i laugh.
"you guys obviously haven't seen me at the house." i say. they laugh. hayes leans over and tickles gias cheek. she gives a half smile. he chuckles.
"why didn't you breastfeed?" taylor asks.
"i tried but i didn't have a big enough milk supply." i say. she nods.
"next one?" she asks. i nod
"hopefully." i say. she laughs. everyone carries on with their conversations. i'm honestly just ready to go home and sleep.
-at home-
"there's mommy." hayes says as i walk into the room. i smile and go lay down next to them. gias against his legs.
"hi baby." i say, tickling her foot. she smiles.
"i'm so sleepy." i say. he nods while yawning.
"same." he says
"let me put her to sleep." i say. i take gia from him and then turn the light off. she's already pretty tired so it takes like 10 ish minutes for her to knock out. i set her in the bassinet and then lay back down.
"you looked pretty today." he says.
"i know. you've told me like 8 times." i say.
"cuz it's true." he says back. i smile and shake my head
"you're a huge flirt still." i say. he laughs
"always will be." he says.
"look at these pictures i took of gia tonight." he says. i scoot over. we then scroll through a bunch of pictures from tonight. eventually i lay my head down on his chest from exhaustion.
"oh okay yea that's fine." he says. i laugh softly.
"okay i'll move." i say. i go to move but he grabs my shirt and pulls me back to him.
"no. i miss your cuddles." he says. i sigh and get comfortable. he begins to rub my side, something he always used to do.
"i missed this." i say. as cheesy as it sounds, his breathing used to always put me to sleep.
"why is your heart beating so fast?" i ask.
"why do you think, kendall." he laughs softly.
"i don't know, that's why i asked." i say. there's a moment of silence and then he speaks
"i missed you. like not because you were in north carolina or anything. but i missed you. like after the break up and everything." he says.
"yea i know. your mom told me everything." i say.
"i still get scared that you'll leave again." he says, after a few beats of silence. i sit up and look at him.
"i'm not going to." i say.
"i know. but it's still a fear of mine." he says.
"i don't think i could lose you or gia again." he says.
"you won't." i say. he nods.
"i love you guys." he says.
"we love you too." i say with a smile. he smiles and i lay back down. just as i'm drifting into sleep, he talks again.
"i still love you." he says. my heart skips a few beats. this is the first time i've heard him say that. my mind goes through a bunch of answers. and then i settle on one.
"are you a-"
"i love you too." i say, cutting him off. he gives my side a squeeze and i smile. i knock out after that. hayes's now calm breathing, fading out.
