hayes - a week later-
nash tosses some trash at me and i throw it away. we're all about to go on a picnic and nash and i were in charge of making the food. big mistake.
"not everyone likes tomatoes." i say as he slaps the slices on every sandwich.
"shut up hayes. they can pick them out." he says. i laugh.
"what are you two making?" i turn as i see my mom walk in
"nash is putting tomato on all the sandwiches." i motion towards him.
"oh nash. kendall is allergic." oh shit that's right. nash sighs and washes his hands then begins making another sandwich. my mom turns to me.
"so. i was thinking maybe after the picnic you and kendall and gia should stay a little longer. have a little family day." she says.
"isn't that what we're doing all ready?" i ask. i hear one of the bedroom doors close.
"hayes where are your extra towels?" taylor asks walking out.
"babe. are you barely taking a shower right now?" nash asks looking at her. she rolls her eyes and looks back at me. i motion to the hall and taylor turns around but stops.
"what's wrong kendall?" she asks. kendall comes into view. she's balling her eyes out but no sounds just tears. really fast tears.
"kendall honey." my mom walks to her and so do i.
"what's wrong?" i ask. she looks at me and shakes her head.
"i'm so sorry." she says softly
"kendall what happened?" my mom asks. she looks at my moms and then back at me.
"i had a miscarriage." my heart sinks.
kendall
i watch as hayes's face drops.
"i'm sorry i didn't tell you." i say. he just kinda scans my face. elizabeth looks at him and then me
"okay. it's okay honey. did it just happen?" she asks.
"no. it was a couple days ago. but i'm cramping again." i say. she nods and taylor grabs some towels.
"come on let's go run you a bath." she says. i glance at hayes again and he's rubbing his face. it makes me cry harder. i'm sure he's upset. elizabeth sits me on the bed and i watch as gia rocks side to side in her swing. god i'm a horrible person.
"hey. look at me." i look down as taylor squats in front of me.
"are you okay?" she asks. i shake my head as tears stream down my face.
"it's okay." taylor says, hugging me.
"okay. it's ready."
-30 minutes later-
i hug my knees as i sit in the warm water. i found out i was pregnant while hayes was still in a coma. i didn't say anything because i was afraid he wouldn't wake up. i was gonna tell him last week but i started spotting and i took a test earlier today and it was negative. i was devastated and all of me just wanted to sit in a ball in the corner and not do anything.
"kendall." i look at the door as i hear hayes's voice.
"yea?" my voice cracks.
"can i come in?" he asks.
"yea." i say. the door opens and he walks in.
"i'm sorry." i say. he shakes his head
"don't do that." he says. he sits next to the tub.
"it's not your fault." i shake my head as the tears start again
"i should've told you when you came home." i say. he shakes his head.
"no. i wouldn't have been able to process you being pregnant." he says. i sigh. a couple moments pass.
"you found out while i was in the hospital?" he asks. i nod.
"yea."
"i wish i could've been there for you. through out the whole thing." he says. i shake my head.
"it's okay." i say. he takes my hand and kisses it
"we have gia. and her little sibling is watching." he says. i smile softly.
"we have gia."
