Can I be happy again? (Natepat) (Suicidal! Matpat)

Help me

Last time-
He unlocked his door and walked in only to be pulled in and punched in the face.
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Also quick warning ⚠️ the first part of this chapter is just full of abuse
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Matt's POV

I fell to the floor as I heard the door close. "Where were you, you piece of shit." My father spat you can smell the alcohol from his breath "At a friend's place." I said I held my hand to where I was hit. Dear old dad gripped my neck and started to drag me around the house "Not good enough you bitch." He said I started clawing at his hands to let my go I couldn't breathe. He threw me down the stairs into the concrete basement. That's gonna hurt in the morning. I heard him walking down the stairs I hear mom coming as well. "Oh my poor baby are you okay?" She didn't care "We heard you were in an accident at the carnival," she fake pouted, just kill me already "We just wanna make sure your okay." Dad pulled me up and punched me in the stomach I fall again "I'm not done with you." I get pulled to my feet again. I see a cigarette I started to shake my head no. "Please no I'll do anything." I started "Shut up." She smacked my face and lifted my shirt he held my arms against the wall and stepped on my shoes keeping me in place. She pressed the cigarette against my chest I started screaming but it was muffled because of him they did it so many times I couldn't keep count. I started to struggle trying to get away. They continued to beat me in any way, shape, or form. I could barely breathe they walked upstairs I heard the door closed I see Skip walking to me. I pet his fur "Glad you're safe buddy," I muttered "Lets get you something to eat." I held onto the wall as I walked up the stairs. I don't know how but I made to the kitchen and fed Skip. I barely walked to the bathroom I pulled out a first aid kit and started to patch my self up. I walked back to my room, changed my clothes, crawled in bed and just stayed there and cried. "I'm just a useless piece of shit." I cried I pulled open the drawer and took out my trusty razor. I started making cuts

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I carved words into my skin
Useless
Bitch
Asshole
Piece of shit
Worthless
Just die

Blood started to drip on my bed I went to the bathroom to clean up and wrap my wrists. How could Nate fall in love me? I'm useless, worthless, all I do is just cry I always need someone to save me. The heard the door knob juggle. They're here. They started to walk up the stairs and entered my room. Without talking they dragged me out the room "Please let me go." I begged but they just kept dragging me into the bathroom of the basement the grip of my wrist was so tight it started to make a trail of blood around the house. They turned on the lights and started to fill the bathtub with ice cold water. "Please no," I begged I started to cry again "Shut up!" She screamed as she slapped me they made me buckled my knees and dunked my head in the water. They kept dunking me for a few hours sometimes keeping me under for 5 minutes or more. When they pulled me out for the last time they dragged me out the bathroom and threw me on the floor like before. I landed on my right side "*Coughs* let me *coughs* go." My voice was weak, I could barely speak, my whole world just looks so so bleak. (I literally have no idea what I have done. I'm so sorry) I looked over to him there was something shining in his pocket. He pulled out a pistol and pointed at me

"Like it?" He said as he pulled down the hammer part with his thumb. I shook my head no tears started to come out again. I lost track of how many times I cried today. "Please just let me go." I cried and cried "That's not good enough." He hit the back of my head with the gun, black spots came to my vision. I felt a small prick in the back of my neck then I heard a gunshot and I felt a pain on my left side. I could see two blurry figures running up the stairs. I just stare off, more black spots started to cover my vision. Is this it? Is this how I go? I felt my eyes close one last time.

3rd Person's POV
(A few minutes before the gunshot)
Shane, Jack, Mark, and Riley were hanging outside taking a walk thinking about what happened since it was a bit chilly they wore hoodies, Mark wore a red hoodie, Jack wore a dark green hoodie, Riley wore a black hoodie and Shane wore and old school varsity hoodie. "Bullshit," Mark said "Preach," Riley giggled "They didn't have those in Maryland." Shane said "What did they have-" Jack was cut off by a gunshot. Shane looked forward, "See anything?" Mark asked "Nada," she said "I'm gonna go check it out." Shane started to walk closer to where the noise was "Are you that stupid?" Jack and Mark asked "I'm coming with you." Riley walked over to Shane. "You're both insane." Jack said "Our houses are this way so we better go either way." Mark reasoned they all walked down the street until they came across a house with paint peeling off, windows broken, it was too damaged for anyone to live in it. Shane walked up to the door and opened it she looked at the others "You coming?" She disappeared inside the house, the others followed. Inside was even worse broken furniture, lamps, picture frames, Shane started to take pictures of the house, Mark picked up a picture "Jack you need to see this." Jack walked over and saw the picture his eyes widened. "That's me and Matt on first day of high school freshmen year. Now that I'm seeing this house," Jack gasped "This is Matt house." There was a noise coming from the kitchen "Quick hide." Riley hushed running to a closet with a folding door, Jack hid under a couch, Mark hid in the hallway bathroom and Shane ran to another closet that had a mirror door. Two figures started to walk in the room "Did you hear anything?" The first figure asked "No let's hurry up and get the money." The second figure said pulling the first one outside. One by one they all left their hiding spots Shane closed the door to the back deck quickly. "That bought us some time." Jack said "Anyone else getting some granny feels?" Mark asked "Grandma no" Riley laughed "Please tell me Matt's not here." Jack begged. They walked upstairs there were 5 doors on the left and 4 doors on the right she walked down the right Riley followed Mark and Jack went left. Shane took pictures of each room she went to a bunch of them were just closets and room filled with broken furniture. When Shane and Riley arrived at the last door it was white there were faded letters spelling out 'Matthew' they both looked at each other and opened the door. Turns out the room wasn't that damaged it was pretty decent it looked like a normal room except for the peeling paint, a broken window, and a small trail of blood. "There's nothing here let's go check with the others." Riley said pulling Shane out of the room but not before she shot a picture. They walked over to the other pair "Found anything?" Shane asked "Just the master bedroom, a bathroom, and a closet, and a room full of......stuff. Anyway did you guys get anything?" Mark asked "Rooms full of broken furniture, a few closets and Matt's bedroom." Riley said "I wanna check out the master bedroom real quick." Shane walked to the master bedroom and took a picture she did the same with the other rooms. "Why are you taking pictures?" Jack asked "I picked up the habit from Dodds and Daniel. Guilty as charged." She smiled "Let's check out the kitchen, Mark did you see anything in that bathroom you hid in?" Shane asked "Yeah I found a used syringe," Mark said "Did you touch it?" Riley asked "No." Mark said. They walked downstairs and went to said bathroom Shane pulled a small evidence bag and some gloves from her bag "Why do you have those?" Jack asked "April fools pranks." "It's June." Mark said "Whatever." With the gloves on Shane puts the syringe in the back and back on the sink counter and walks to the kitchen taking pictures as they go. The kitchen was fine except with a strange powder on the island countertop. "Yeah not touching that." Shane took a picture and left "Last stop the basement." Riley said as they descend to said place instead of taking pictures Shane took a video and what they found on the basement floor will scar them forever. They found a small trail of blood leading to a bigger trail leading to Matt's body. "Matt!" Jack ran over and shook him "Hey Matt wake up." Jack started crying Shane walked over and looked for where the blood was coming from "He's been grazed." She looked at the others she then looks for a pulse "Got a pulse but it's weak. We need to get him out of here now." Mark walked over and was about to carry him "Wait if you do that with out covering the wound he'll bleed out." Riley said taking her hoodie of and ripping the sleeves using them to wrap the graze. Shane just got off the phone "There should be a bus coming here in 20 minutes-" She was cut of by the banging upstairs. Shane started to walk upstairs "Where are you going?" Riley asked "Don't worry about me take care of Matt till the bus gets here I'll deal with them," Shane said "Let me do it." Mark said "Mark I need you to carry Matt when they get here besides I got something they don't want to get out." "What is it?" Jack asked "Evidence." Shane walked upstairs. The next 5 minutes were filled with pairs of feet running, a bit of teasing from Shane, the door opening and closing twice, and distant gunshots. "We got 15 minutes left let's make them count," Riley said looking at them. Mark carried Matt upstairs to the living room "I'll check outside to see if the coast is clear." Riley walked outside and saw shadows running away on the right. She walked back inside, everyone heard a small meow "Skip!" Jack picked up the cat and scratched behind its ear "We can't leave him here." He said "We won't after I give Matt to the EMTs I'll take Skip so you guys can go to the hospital with Matt," Mark said "What about Chica?" Riley asked "She's at a friends house because mom's redecorating." Riley checked her watch "10 minutes till they get here." She sighed.