Life Changer

Chapter 33- Back to mourning

Brads POV

I struggled to her back up from the icy cold tile floor. My mind wandering off to the 'What if's'

What if something bad happened?

What if she didn't make it?

What if her memory loss was permanent?

What if she remembers and doesn't want me back?

I got up to my feet because Tris had come to the rescue along with James as they both helped me get back on my weak unstable feet. It was useless no matter how much I hoped for the best there was a gut feeling that nothing will ever be the same. Why? I don't know, but I really am not liking it one bit.

I wiped my tears away and sniffled. God I've done so much crying that I think I'm running out of tears already. Why can our relationship he easy and fun? Why does it have to be so complicated? Why do we have to always have someone or something intervene?

At the moment I don't even care if she did cheat on me, I just want her back. I want to be back in my arms. Right where she belongs.

"Let's go grab some coffee" Connor said sadly as he dragged Tris along

James looked over at me and I shook my head "Ok I'll bring you one then" James said and left

I'm left alone. Again. There's this hole in my heart and it's missing it's other half. That other half is Isabella.

God if you're listening to this please help her get through this. She doesn't deserve to suffer with cancer. She's too kind and sweet to die. Don't take her away from me, don't take her away from the people that love her, of you're going to take anyone take me instead. She has so much to look forward to in life.

The Isabella's hospital room opened and out came the doctor and the 3 nurses and walked the other way.

"You family?" he asked me

I shook my head "no, her family is in London. I'm the closest person she has. I'm her boyfriend" I added

"Ok then. Might as well let you know that-

"Let us know what?"i turned aroun and saw the lads come with cup of coffee in their hands. James hands me mine and I hesitantly take it from him.

The doctor sighed and pulled out his pen and wrote something on his clipboard and him the clipboard on the cubby hung on the door.

God, stop stalling!!!

"I'm sorry.....

But unfortunately she has fallen in a coma again. Her brain could not take the seizure and I guess we were sure we had safety removed the tumor but sadly it had spread to the left side of her brain. I'm not sure if she will make it. But I will put her in for another operation to have it permanently removed...." he gulped

"However we must shave her hair off completely" he said

I nodded "it's fine I don't care as long as the tumor is removed and she's alive."

"That's the thing.." the doctor trailed off

"If the operations goes wrong there's a slight chance the tumor will spread to the rest of her brain and causing her to die on impact or stay in a coma for a long time"

I sobbed into my hands and tris pulled me in and I rested my head on his shoulder as he rubbed circles on my back.

"I'm sorry."

"I think we will take the chance. Give her the operation" James said as calmly as possible but failed miserably due to his trembling voice.

"Alright then. Brad will you please sign these papers indicating you allow this" he said and I pulled away from tris' embrace and signed.