Life Changer

Chapter 39-Yolo

"That's the thing, I'm sorry but you are not allowed to have any physical contact for the simple reason that it can provoke you to vomit. And two....."
She sighed and held tighter into the clioboard in her hands.
"You've been diagnosed with Terminal Cancer"
Those last words made my heart shatter. My life it's over.
"What? No, she can't be" wait I didn't say that.
I looked up and saw a mob of curls....Brad.
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"Please tell me this is a joke" he said and began to look at everyone around, his pink trembling lips partly opened. His gentle eyes landed on me, giving me a sense of sympathy. I don't need it though, he doesn't love me. He left me, he gave up on me, it hurts. So much. What the boys had told me shattered my dreams and then if I think about it....what's the point on being with him if I'm
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Going to die
"Baby, I'm so-
"Leave" I said while I gave him a serious look. It pained me so much but I didn't want to cry infront of him. I don't want him to see me in a weaker state than I am at the moment. That's what he wants, me to cry so he feels wanted.
"What! No why? "
He walked over to my side but Connor blocked his way and pressed his hand on his chest.
"Just leave man"
Brad glared at Connor but in a sudden moment Connors body crashed into the wall when Brad shoved him out of his way.
"I need to speak with her alone" Brad turned to the lads.
"No! LEAVE! WE ARE DONE!!!" I shouted with angry tears cascading down my pale wrinkled cheeks
"We are going to talk like grown adults understand!" Brad shouted angrily, his veins outlined in the side of his head and his jawline was tightened
"Don't yell at her! If you came to yell at her leave" Tamia spoke up "I don't know what's going on, but it seems like youve fucked up again so get your bloody flat ass out of here" Tamia scolded and glared at him
"What she said" Teresa added
"Oh so now you all show up. She's about to die and you come, hypocrites I-"
Ken looked like she was about to explode so she glared and stomped over to where he stood by me
"Look mr. Famous asshole. Not all of us are made of fucken money. You're famous and all, so you can move as you wish. So don't pin this on us got it" she shoved him
Brad just rolled his eyes and Ken brushed past him and beckoned everyone to follow her out my room to leave us alone.
I turned away from Brad, clearly knowing his gaze was piercing through my soul.
"Isabella."
"Hm"
"Why are you mad?"
I scoffed and turned to look him dead in the eye.
"Why am I mad??? Well geez why wouldn't I be mad when I'm told that my boyfriend whom I've grown to love so much forgets about me and moves on with some other girl?" I said with a sarcastic smile "hmmm?!?! Answer! HOW THE HELL DO YOU THINK I FEEL!!! " I couldn't take it anymore. I exploded and I don't regret a word I said
I begant to cough violently again so I grabbed the bucket and held into my aching chest tightly
"I'm sorry" was all he said and walked away
I grabbed a sip of water and I looked over at Brad who was walking away very slowly but then stopped before he got to the door. I furrowed my eyes and he turned around and ran to me and cupped my face and left a long lingering kiss on my lips. I didn't know how to react so I lie there motionless.
Brads POV
I feel awful and like such a moron for not waiting. I don't know what took over me but in going to have to end things with Hannah. I know she'll be crushed but I'm sure she'll understand. After the kiss she had cried and told me to leave so I did. I left but proud because in the end after not kissing back she pulled me in for a kiss. That made a weight lift off my shoulders
I arrived infront of Hannah's apartment so I got off my car and looked around and made sure there was so paps or anyone with a camera at least and made my at up. I knocked on the white painted door.
"Brad? What are you doing here?" She said and pulled me inside after she looked out to make sure No one was looking
"I need to speak with you"
She nodded and went into the kitchen
"Do you want coffee? Or do you prefer tea? "I heard her smirk
"I'm good thanks." I assured her "Just come here it's serious" I called from the living room
"Ok" she giggled and walked over and sat on the sofa across from me.
She was in a messy bun and some gray joggers and an oversized sweater. Her teal tips propping out of her bun.
"So?"
"Right. I don't think this" I motioned between her and I "is going to work out" I said
"What why? Did I do something wrong?" Her voice shook
I shook my head and sighed "no, Isabella woke up"
Her eyes widened and she smiled "it's ok I understand. Go to her. You both belong together."
I had to blink a few times just to let it all sink in. She want mad?
"I thought you'd be mad"
"Me? No. I'm a physiatrist and nurse for a reason right?" She chuckled "We can steal be friends right?" She asked
"Yeah
"Coolio! Well I would say spend the night but instead I'm going to say get out if me home! hahaha" she laughed
"Ok ok" I laughed at her attempt of a joke
"Goodnight"
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When I was sleeping all I could think about was.
How am I going to get Isabella back?
I want her back even if it means getting hurt in the end of all this madness because of her illness. I love her either way, even if she's not as healthy as ever she's still the same old izzy as before.
I love her with all my might and I won't ever let go. When she goes
How will I survive? Is the question
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I'm going to just suck it up like a man and pretend nothing is wrong. I'm going to make every day count and live like there's no tomorrow because in reality for her there might not be.