Clipped Wings

XXVIII

July 29th 

Harper sat on his sofa glancing at the portrait above his fireplace admiring the intricate brush strokes it must have taken whoever did it a very long time. Finnegan storms into the living room breaking the blissful silence a decanter and glass in hand. But Harper knew he was most likely just having the cup for show drinking straight from the bottle instead. Slamming the glass on the coffee table next to Harper as she crossed her legs throwing her hands in her lap tucking a piece of hair behind her ear. 

"I've told you once Clancy and I'll tell you again let me wipe your fucking memory. This is getting out of hand." Finnegan snaps and Harper takes a deep breathe knowing this argument was going nowhere quickly. 

"I don't want to lose you. You will remember me but I won't remember you. I have already lost enough in my life. Sure my family hate that I spend time with you , sure they hate I am not so perfect any more. But it's what I want and need. Since my mother died I have felt lost my brother moved on had a baby. I want that. I want to feel what it's like to not feel trapped and you gave me that. I feel like a new person and I can't thank you enough for that. But I am scared to go back. Scared to be in the dark all over again. Crying every time I see Kibbles sat by her dressing table. Crying every time I put a coin in my stupid money box saving for Disney. I can't do it Finn. I just can't so please. stop bringing it up. OK if I die I will die fulfilled and I will be able to happily rest with my mother." Harper rambles as she begins to tear up this was an argument she was fed with having shocking herself that she admitted that much to him but hopefully he would finally listen to her. 

Finnegan places the empty cup on the coffee table leaving the decanter where it is also sitting down next to Harper he took her left hand in his squeezing it lightly. 

"If that is what you wish Harper but I can tell you right now this is only the start. Until you fully convert to the dark side it won't end. He won't leave you alone. I stopped it from happening because I killed Lilibeth and it was the worst day of my life. I couldn't bring myself to take away her innocence I could corrupt her and take her away from her family for my selfish needs...." Finnegan admits tears forming in his own eyes.

 It was clear he hadn't ever spoken about this ever not being the type to freely talk about all the horrible things he had done in his life. Well maybe make a joke about body count here and there but that was it for him to actually delve into the thing that has followed him all his life was hard. 

"Finn it's ok." Harper whispers and he nods as Harper touched his cheek gently wiping away his tears as he usually did to her making him smile. 

Leaning in slightly leaving now distance between the two of them resting his forehead against hers smiling. 

"You're one of a Kind Clancy. I don't think I have met a strong pure angel than you in my whole life." Finnegan whispers Harper's face broke out into the biggest smile possible giving him a quick peck on the lips for a moment she thought he was going to chastise her but he didn't. 

He instead took charge and kissed her again and Harper felt like she was on cloud nine. 

"I swear you will be the death of me Finnegan Ridley." Harper jokes as he freezes clearly that hit a nerve. 

"Clancy I know I usually make inappropriate jokes but that was uncalled for and killed the moment." Finnegan replies as Harper laughs rolling her eyes pushing him lightly as he adorned his signature smirk. 

"Now what shall we watch on tv and don't you dare say fucking love island. I will not watch that shite for as long as I live even if I meant that I lost out on the love of my life or lost an endless supply of money or couldn't touch scotch for the rest of my life ... or" Finnegan states as Harper stops him laughing as he gets up off the sofa heading to the tv to turn it on. 

"I get. You don't like it.  But if you won't watch Love Island then I don't want to watch any of those crime , murder doc things or American Horror story. Ever." Harper counters as Finnegan turns on the balls of his feet to glare at her like a parent who has told their child no iPad before bed time. 

Mouthing a string of profanities as he picked up the television remote with his free hand he picked up the decanter taking a swing slamming the bottle back down. As he plopped back on the sofa next to Harper not even looking at her. Harper took the hairband off of her wrist pulling her hair into a ponytail taking her tea cup from the coffee table on the other side of the sofa taking a sip. Grimacing at how cold it had gotten realising she shouldn't have left it for as long as she did. Debating whether she should down the last of the Luke warm liquid before it got bone cold or just go and make herself another one. But she quite honestly couldn't be bothered to get up off the sofa unless Finnegan put on the most boring show she had ever laid her eyes on. Then she would get up quicker than Finnegan could down a bottle of scotch. 

I'm glad you decided to play with fire sweetheart. I am glad you aren't gonna give up makes my life so much more fun tormenting the two of you. A male voice said in Harper's head as she rolled her eyes. 

"You ok with Queer eye? I mean its the most tame thing I watch because I personally love staring at Antoni for an hour. well actually I would fuck all of them to be honest so I usually just binge watch all the episodes of Queer eye till either I can't watch any more or Netflix asks me if I am still watching and I usually can't be bothered to pick up the control to say yes." Finnegan rambles as if to try and prove himself to Harper that he was a male man but saying he just watched it for the guys. 

"Don't lie to yourself Finn you know you watch it for the guys and their adorable friendship but then you end up crying because they completely change someone's life for the better and you end up sobbing into a pint of ice cream because it so beautiful. I'm not stupid." Harper retaliates and Finnegan again acts like a pissed off child. 

"It's a no to Queer eye then." Finnegan mutters angrily go back to searching through for something to watch as Harper rolls her eyes at him.