Stay With Me

chapter seven

Eva

I've been thinking about how I'm going to tell Jack. I've also been thinking about how he's going to react. Part of me thinks he will be mad and the other part really wants to think that he will be happy that I'm having his child.

I mean what am I supposed to think? He's so confusing. We've talked about having a baby together and he was always so excited but it's a whole different story now.

I think I'm just going to ask him to take a walk with me and then I'll tell him.

I stepped into my Birkenstock's and fixed my shorts that were a little messed up and then walked out of my room.

I made my way through the house and down stairs to Jack's room.

His door was open and I could see that he was just standing by his bed with his phone in his hands. He must've been texting.

I'm having deja vu.

I knocked on his door frame and his head shot up and his eyes became soft.

I stood still, letting the tension fill the room.

I took a deep breath, "hi jack"

He put his phone on his bed but kept his eyes on me, "hi Eva"

A small smile was creeping on my lips but it's only because I love the way he looks at me, by just a glance he would have me blushing like crazy.

I pushed the happy thoughts away and looked for a way to tell him.

"I have some really important news I need to talk to you about, are you busy?" He answered me almost immediately, "no, what's the news?"

"Well I was hoping you'd go on a walk with me-"

My sentence died off and I was kind of just standing there waiting for him to say yes or no.

"Sure, just let me put some shoes on."

I watched as he gathered a pair of all white shoes and put them on.

He looks really good.

After he gets shoes on he follows behind me, as I make my way through the house.

I open the front door and he closes it. We start making our way down the beautiful road and he follows in line, walking next to me.

We reach the park in silence and end up gravitating to a park bench in between two beautiful, tall, green trees.

He looks at me and I can't read his face. "What the news we had to come all the way to the park for?" He pushed, only if he knew what I was about to say.

"Alright." I took a deep breath and braced myself.

"When I moved to New York, I stopped going in and getting my monthly birth control shot"

I stopped and looked away from him, I can't see his face when I tell him that he's going to be a dad.

"So when you guys came to watch my show, I wasn't on birth control. So when we had sex we weren't using any protection. Jack I'm pregnant."

He didn't say anything for what felt like years.

All of a sudden he chucked. I looked at him in the eyes and I could tell he must've thought I was joking, "Jack im being dead serious."

He stopped laughing and looked me dead in the eyes. "Eva what the fuck? Why would you not tell me you were off birth control?!"

He was getting mad. This is exactly what I didn't want to happen.

The tears started forming in my eyes. Fuck. I'm so emotional it's bad.

"We were both wasted, it takes two ya know? You weren't the one with the condom were you? Jack it's not like I wanted this ether."

He sighed and leaned back on the bench.

I looked away and at all the green grass and trees.

"I'm with Tiana." He said.

Like thanks jackass, I already knew that.

I didn't say anything but I nodded, "I really hope you don't expect her to be a stepmother to my child." I was the one getting mad now.

He sighed, "Eva she's the one I swear. I know this ain't the best thing to do right now but I want to be honest with you. She's different, you know you'll always be my first love and I will always love you, but Tiana, she's really the one I see myself with at the end of it all."

He can't be for real. Why is he saying this to me? Can't he see that I'm here wanting to be with him?

I annoyingly and hurtfully glare at him, tears brimming my eyes. "Do you even care that I'm pregnant with your kid? Or did you want to just keep rubbing your relationship in my face?"

He sat up, "of course I care. And I'm going to be there for him or her, and for you."

I nodded and looked down at my belly. Poor kid. I couldn't imagine growing up and your parents not being together, that's not what I wanted for my child.