Stay With Me

chapter five

Eva

2 blue lines.

2 small little lines just created a very large mess. Oh fuck, this isn't good.

What should I do? How do I even think? This really does change everything.

I tap the test in my hand and my eyes are wide.

I hear a knock on the bathroom door, "Eva? Is everything okay?" Brittany steps in and I turn around to face her.

She looks down at the test and back up at my eyes, "is it positive?"

I nod and a tear falls from my eye.

She immediately hugs me but it doesn't make me feel any better. I just don't know what to say or think or do.

I mean of course I'm going to have the baby, I can't get an abortion, I've always been against it. I mean I agree everyone should have a choice but I could never personally do it, it's my child.

Woah. That's scary to say. I didn't plan on being a mom for at least a few more years. I'm only 20.

I need to tell jack. I mean I have to. Right?

I think I need to go back to LA for a while, right? I don't fucking know what to do.

- - -

I tap my phone against my hand, while pacing around my room.

Brittany left a while ago and I've been contemplating on wether or not I should book a flight back to LA. In moments like this, I wish my mom was here. She'd know exactly what to do.

I stop pacing and hold my phone up to my face. I click on my contacts and find Makayla's name.

I pressed call.

*convo*
M- hello?
E- hey, are you busy?
M- no, I'm just sitting in living room watching the guy play some game- why what's up E?
E- I have to talk to you- could you go in another room?
M- yeah one second......what's up Eva?
E- okay so I'm just gonna spit it out. When you guys came to see me and we all got super drunk, Jack and I ended up having sex.
M- WHAT
E- I know I know it's bad. That's not even the worst part.
M- awe Eva
E- I know, listen we woke up and he called Tiana and lied to her about where he was and then basically told me it was a mistake and then he left.
M- that's why he was so depressed when we left. He has been so moody lately, it all makes sense now.
E- I'm pregnant.
*line goes quiet for a minute*
E- Makayla?
M- Eva oh my god. Do you know for sure?
E- yes.
M- this is bad
E- I know.
M- what are you going to do?
E- I don't know, that's why I called you. I'm all alone here, I don't know what to do. My career just started and I live in New York- jack doesn't want to be with me- Jesus he has a whole girlfriend who doesn't even know we had sex- Makayla I'm freaking out.
M- Eva Eva it's okay- can you come back to LA and I will help you figure this all out. I can't help you when you all the way across the country.

I was nodding although I knew she couldn't see my response.

E- yes. I'm coming back as soon as I can, but I need your help in finding a place to live. You know the real estate there is awful.
M- why don't you move back in with us? Your room and everything is still here and the same, it's been untouched.
E- I don't know about that-
M- no Eva. It's set, your moving back in with us. I need to be with you at all times just in case anything happens with the- the you know what.
E- right. Okay I'm gonna figure some stuff out here and I'll keep you updated.
M- bye E, I love you.
E- love you to M.
*end of convo*

I pull my phone down away from my ear and lock it, setting it on my bed.

I should start packing.

I'll call cookie on the way, and I have no clue on what's next for me. But I do know that I'm going to be takin this one step at a time, with or without Jack.