After - The Society Fanfic.

4.

Allie couldn't sleep. This isn't unusual but at least when she lay awake it was in her bed and now on the cold hard floor of a cellar. She hadn't slept all night and she thought the exhaustion might help for a nap during the day. However, no such luck. She'd be deemed a greater risk than Will, put in the wine cellar whilst he was in a room upstairs. Luke sat on the other side of the glass doors. He's facing away from her. Every time it was his shift, he'd move the chair, so it'd face away from her. He didn't want to look at her. She couldn't figure out whether it was due to guilt or disgust. Did he genuinely believe all the lies? He was instrumental in her arrest, so he must to an extent. Yet, she couldn't help but feel its guilt that keeps him turned. Someone you think you know turns out to something they're not. Except Allie hadn't hidden anything and this was all bullshit. She slams herself slightly against the wall, huffing. Luke flinches. So, he is awake at least.

As much as she wants to blame the entire situation on Luke, she knows it's partially due to her behaviour the past six months. However, she can't help that it's been shit. This whole thing is shit, no matter who is in charge. Lexie is going to discover that soon enough. When you're in charge you change, you say you're not going to be a certain person but the position changes you. You have to change; you have to make decisions that you don't want to make. Dewey's dead body flashes across her eyes and she shudders, the sick feeling rising up her stomach. It was never going to leave her, she knows that. She has to live with the ghosts.

Dewey's dead body is one of the few reasons she does not want to return home. Would the judicial system understand? No. She'd be locked up for murder. But here, here in this world, it was necessary. She had to keep telling herself that, she had to make herself believe that otherwise, she'll go insane.

Being in here is driving her insane. She tried to reason with Lexie and Harry but it fell on deaf ears. She hadn't realised the hatred harbouring for her. No, that's a lie. She knew, she just chose to ignore it. There were bigger issues than having everyone like her. She scoffs. Harry is going to have an issue with that. Lexie might be able to handle it, but not for long. She promised these people change, a more fun regime compared to Allie's hard labour. Except the hard labour is needed right now so, things are either about to fall in chaos or Lexie is going to realise she's in over her head and fall into Allie's rules once more. It's a harsh reality many haven't accepted yet, even after six months. Allie had tried and clearly failed to have everyone understand that right now it's not about liking thing, it's about getting on with it.

Fuck everyone. She huff and slams herself again the side again. Luke's head slightly turns. So he's paying attention to her. She wonders what Helena is thinking of all of this. Helena had agreed that she didn't want Lexie or Harry in charge. Had they fallen out? Or were they fine?

"Luke." His head instinctively twitches towards her. He has greater restraint than she thought. "Luuuuuuke." She sings his name hoping to goad him out of silence. No such luck. "Luke." Silence. "Come on, we're friends talk to me." He turns. Ah-ha! Finally.

"We weren't friends." Ouch. He turns back around. What is going on with him? They weren't friends? After everything, they've been through? He had been one of the most trustworthy Guard members. Grizz and Luke were the two she knew she'd always be able to count on and now? Allie wishes she knew what happened to deserve this betrayal.

Grizz. She sits up straight. He found land. They were going to make it through next summer. Hopefully. If they could figure out the farming. They'll need to spare people to go make the land workable. They managed to cope with the loss of a few members, but will they be able to handle more leaving? The trash duty could be done by a smaller amount of people. It would be longer and more gruelling shifts, but it would allow more people to join Grizz and the team. There needs to be people in the kitchen and stores. There isn't a way to lose people there as they'll need to keep careful track of the supplies. A few of The Guard could go. Maybe some of the "weaker" members, the ones that cannot cope with their guarding duties alone, the ones that can't handle situations alone. She continues planning what to do about the new land when suddenly she stops. She's not in charge anymore. She might be dead by the morning, who knows what Lexie is going to do. No, she won't be dead by morning. As much as there was a personal vendetta against Allie, she knew that ultimately Lexie cared about justice and fairness. Things Allie had failed to show her. A possibly fatal mistake.