Only You(BWWM)

Chapter 8- And The Truth Comes Out

CHASE'S POV

    I haven't let anyone in since my mom. I've built this brick wall, that no one has been allowed in since she died. Then here Paris comes, all grown up, and sexy. I'm not gonna lie, I wanted to kill her. I wanted her father to feel what I felt.

   His mate wasn't enough for me... my mother meant the world to me and he killed her. He took away the most important woman in my life. My father, he tried, but my mom... she was amazing. Once she died, the emotional side of me did too, and I hate him for that.

     And I hate that Paris, is taking that away from me. You spend years not letting people in, and then one person can come and take that away. I knew I shouldn't have been sleeping with that slut, but I was willing to do anything to make Paris hate me.

    I would prefer her hate me, than love me because after all this time, I forgot how to love. And maybe I didn't... maybe I just don't want to let her in because there's a chance that I'll fall in love with her and lose her too.

   That's what i'm afraid of... loving someone, only to lose them. Even Cat, I'll protect her with my life, but I don't want to be too vulnerable with her. Then she could be used as a weakness, and my only weakness has been killed so, there's no reason for me to be vulnerable.

   I know that Cat feels like I don't care about her, but I do. I just can't find it in me to want to love someone. I don't want to be hurt. That's why I kill anyone and I feel no remorse, that's why I turn peoples lives inside out, and that's why I have to maintain this hard, cruel image. Because then, no one has anything to use against me.

   But, there's something about Paris that draws me to her, and it's not just the mate bond. Even before then, I had to be around her. I didn't care if all we ever did was fight. I liked the fight in her.

   I liked how she spoke her mind, and did what she wanted. I liked how she could beat down a bunch of rogues and still look good after. I liked how when she smiled it tugged at my heart, even if she wasn't smiling at me. I liked how she never gave up, if we fought and she lost, she would always come back for a round two. And I always lost the second round.

  Nobody knows that but her and I.

   Paris, she was different from other girls. She didn't want to flaunt herself at me. She wanted to fight me, she wanted to kill  me. And I don't doubt that she could have. Paris is strong and an Alpha. But even if she wasn't an Alpha, she'd still be strong. I never expected her to be my mate. Talk about irony.

    I'm glad that she's mine, and I don't want to hurt her because I actually, care about her. I think. I just, I can't let her break down everything I've built and make me vulnerable to being hurt all over again. People, even my family, tend to think it's because I want to keep up an image for my pack. Oh, how terribly wrong they are.

   I have conquered and overpowered every pack in the U.S, even the Royal Family gives me free reign because I'm stronger than them.  My family used to be Royal, we orginated from Italy. We had beaten every other Royal Pack in the world. Including King Alex's family. We weren't the Venomus Biters, or the Royal Bloodlines. We were Altissimo 'Most High'. 

   We migrated to America because my great grandfather was in rule. He was corrupt, he was cruel, and sick. He killed his own mate, and tried to serve her blood to our family. He claimed that she was the last white wolf. I doubt that, but he was a psycho. My grandfather killed him as a young boy. He killed him and moved all of our packs here.

   Because it was already a kingdom here, we got permisiion to move here, but we didn't get any rules. They knew that we were still stronger than them. As long as we formed an alliance than we had free reign to do what we wanted. We bought out alot of land, and it's exclusive to venomus biters only.