RETROGRADE; minsung ✓

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after several days with soyeon, she wasn't really bad. in fact she treated me well as a companion.
but soyeon was always distant, like she was hiding from me even when she doesn't have to and it made me feel upset somehow but i can't blame her either, we have to keep distance and privacy we want on our own.

like she said i was just a companion but to me, i really want to make friends with her. she seems like a person i, well, we don't get along well but that makes it better doesn't it?

"that's all for today lee, go get back to the dorms or something and eat and stuff. tomorrow is our last day glad you're gonna be off my sleeve."

she told me and i frowned, she sat on the edge of the building's roof with far away eyes and instead of heading back like she told me, i sat beside her but kept the silence.

she didn't push me away though (more thankfully not off the roof or else i'm dead.)
we sat there in silence for a long time which i actually liked instead of us screaming at each other all the time.

"why did you end up here?"
she asked, her voice soft and normal which actually sounds nice for once.

"mmm..."
i felt her eyes fixed on me as i recalled back my memories.
"my mom left me in another orphanage when i was really young. she told me she was just dropping me off to school but i didn't know she was going to leave me in an orphanage. sadly it can't support all the kids anymore so we needed to move, it all went like that for a while until just less than two years ago i got adopted but hell i hated them!"

my hands tightened on the edge of the roof i sat on and soyeon sat closer to me curious of what happened next.
"they abused me a lot, i hated my life there, sure they fed me but it was less, let me go to school and.... it just wasn't worth it. everything there and what they did was torture so... i ran away and i ended up here."

"hmm..."
soyeon looked up at the far view and i looked at her, with all courage with me i asked her quite a sensitive question which i wish won't make her push me down to my death. i hate heights but this wasn't that high up bUT STILL I CAN DIE YOU KNOW!

"h-how about you? how did you end up here?"
i asked and she became silent.
i braced myself for her to push me or hit me but it was silent, and it was toxicating. really prefer her pushing me off instead absjwmsmwmsw.

"how i ended up here?"
she took a deep breath and a small disbelief smirk played sidely on her lips.
"lived here all my life...."

i kept a close ear to what she was saying like she did to me and she laughed when she noticed.
her expression softened and her breathing hitched for a moment.
"my.... parents died when i was three... car crashed and all that, i was the only one who survived. but i believed it wasn't just an accident, it felt like someone was planning to sabotage our family.... my older cousin, wonwoo oppa's family was also on a runaway before us...."

"anyway, my mom always told me to run no matter what happens in the future. to not look back...."

"she said to always look forward. only a coward looks back, she was a strong woman. my family was always on the run, felt like they did so many bad things to run from."
she sighed and hugged her knees.

"so i ran from there. the police found me and turned me to my uncle and aunt, i never saw my parents from that day nor do i know they were buried.... the family i stayed at saw me as a threat and also mistreated me. my cousin jeongguk oppa was the only one who took care of me.... at the age of five they left me here where i stayed kept in for eight years."

she told me and i felt bad, her story seems way more sad and hurting than what i've been through.
she looked at me dead in the eyes and for once i saw the life in soyeon's eyes.

"i was once just like you."

she told me and looked away to the view in front of us, the city in the distance by the roofs of houses and the moon glistening to us both.
"i was once so innocent that i thought the world was a bright and happy place to live in. that everyone was good and bad people don't exist....because i lived a life full of lies, always running away from the truth my family tried to hide."

"i'm sorry soyeon-ah... i didn't know you went through all that."
i told her, seeing her hug her knees with a sad aura around her.

"don't be sorry lee. it'll make someone feel more bad and guilty than what they already are...."

"should i hug you?"

"ewwww no! don't you dare lee!"

"ummm..."
i awkwardly patted her back and she saw the uneasiness in me that she started laughing.

i laughed along with her after then, soyeon is still a person after all, we're still the same age and i'm supposed to understand her well. it felt like i just unlocked a part in her heart to open up and she did so with me that i finally let out all those things i've been keeping for years now.

that morning i woke up, i found her on the distance from all the kids playing with her arms crossed.
i went to her and she smiled.
"get that sleep away from your face, we have a long day ahead minho."

she said before walking off while i stood there shocked.
she turned around and looked at me weirdly.
"what the hell is wrong with you?"

"y-you... actually called me by my name....."
i said with my jaw dropped while she smiled.

"what's wrong with that? aren't we friends?"

that's when my jaw dropped further to the point i think it might've reached the floor.
"w-we're— wE'RE FRIENDS NOW!? YAAAAAY!— "

"DON'T YOU DARE HUG ME OR ELSE I'M WHOOPING YOUR ASS TO PLUTO!"

i calmed myself before grinning again and happily skipped behind soyeon as i followed her.
turns out our week extended and now, i wasn't expecting she was going to be my best friend.

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