i'm falling for you » ethma

chapter 6 » vegas baby,part 4

-emma's pov-

As those words slowly escaped Ethan's mouth, I could do nothing but look at him in confusion.It may looked like I was just confused,but a whole volcano of emotions in me was triggered. What was he going go tell me? Is it going to be good or bad? At the same time, I was feeling incredibly scared,happy,sad,nervous and hopeful. I like him a lot,I really do.But what are the odds of him liking me back? 

He finally spoke

,,Okay so uh.. '' he seemed really nervous and his fingers were quickly tapping the table we were sitting at. 

,,Ethan. '' I decided to comfort him ,,It's okay.You can tell me anything you want''

He looked at me and made another attempt of saying what he previously wanted to.

,,Emma,listen I .. I'm sorry. '' He looked ashamed and I saw a small tear escape his eye.

At this point,I was just straight up confused.Ethan Dolan crying? And letting me see it? What the hell was he crying about? A million thoughts ran through my mind at the speed of light.

I moved a bit closer to him and cupped his face with my hands gently,making him turn his face around and look me in the eyes.

,,I..I always ruin everything'' 

I was hurt by seeing him cry. 

,,Ethan,listen to me okay? You never ruined anything for me, and I highly doubt that you ruined something for anybody else. You are literally perfect. It will be fine ''

Ethan tightly hugged me and I felt he didn't want to let go.Neither did I.I wanted to stay in this moment forever only if I could. My hands were around his neck and I started playing with his hair gently. His grip on me loosened up a little bit,and he backed away just a little,still very close to me.After he broke our hug,he looked me in the eyes and asked quietly

,,Emma..did you really mean what you said..? ''

,,Ethan how could I not, I love yo- '' My words were cut off by Ethan slowly pressing his lips against mine.

I can't describe that feeling. You'd only understand if it happened to you once. I was confused but I was certain that I wasn't going to push him away.So,I kissed him back. It wasn't a make out session it was just.. a sweet,innocent kiss. After about 10 seconds,he pulled away and smiled.

,,Ethan I.. '' I started

,,No.Let's not talk about it for now. Let it be our little secret for a while. Then we'll figure it out. ''

I nodded my head in agreement and as soon as I did,Grayson and James walked in telling us to get our asses up because we're going to the cinema.

,,What are we watching? '' Ethan asked

,, Just a comedy '' Grayson said smiling 

The whole time we were going there, I couldn't stop myself from feeling extremely happy. I felt like I had the power to fly to the moon.I just kissed Ethan Dolan..

-at the cinema-

I wanted to sit next to Ethan,like I have been for the past 2 days,but James sat between us two.I caught a quick glance at Ethan and he seemed a little disappointed.But ofc,if I said I wanted to sit next to him,it would be way to suspicious. So, I decided not to. The movie was great,and everytime he laughed I couldn't help but notice how beautiful and genuine his smile and laugh were. God,every time I look at his I just fall in love more and more. It was an amazing feeling,but also a scary one.It was bitter sweet. 

I caught myself looking at Ethan more than at the actual screen.Oh no.Has anyone noticed? Are Grayson and James going to say something about it..? 

-ethan's pov- 

Oh my god what have I done.Why did I kiss her? Should I talk to her about it? Do I actually have feelings for her or did I just do it because she comforted me. I just happened to remember something really traumatic that happened to Gray and I when we were little and I wanted to talk to her about it because I felt like I could trust her.I still believe that I can trust her. But what I did..I think it was a mistake. But.. I'm not going to talk to her about it yet. I can't bring myself to do so. She is so nice and I can't just break it to her like that.I guess I gotta figure something out before she catches actual feelings for me. 

-an hour later-

It was time to go to our hotel to sleep.As we were going there,my thoughts were flooded by waves of Emma and our kiss. Why did I pay so much attention to that..? After my ex girlfriend,I promised myself that I would never fall for someone or ever kiss someone again. I just broke a promise I made to myself a year ago. My ex made me think that I wasn't worthy of love,affection and somebody's time. She broke my heart and tore me apart.

-emma's pov- 

I know that I should be tired,we had a long and exhausting day but I felt like I just woke up.

When we got to our room,everyone immediately crashed onto the bed,so I laid there as well.Ethan on my right, and James on my left. Since I couldn't fall asleep,I pulled up my phone to finish editing the Vegas vlog that I've been filming for the past 2 days.Nothing special,I've already edited most of it on my laptop,but just some more touching up and it was ready to ge uploaded to Youtube. 

-after an hour-

It's been an hour ,I finished editing and put it on render over night,so that I could upload it first thing in the morning when I wake up... if I even sleep.Since I had nothing to do,I texted Amand and Olivia.

girl gang

emma: girls..

               you awake? 

amanda: why the fuck arent you sleep 

olivia: im up

emma: i gotta tell you something..

olivia: oh hell no.

amanda: emma..you didn't.. did you?

olivia: omfg

emma: what? ...

amanda: you didn't kiss ethan fucking dolan did you emma?

emma: i did...

»authors note: 

...im at a loss for words. i said that i would publish chapter 6 after my last one hit 75 reads but it actually has 101 at the time im writing this. thank you,so much. i never expected 50 reads,let alone 100. i love yall. <3 

oh also this is going to be an emotional roller coaster so prepare your tissues girls..