Wretched Choices

Chapter 24

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Chapter 24
Tomorrow Night

The heavy feeling lingering on me was lifted off my chest right after I had a conversation with Hope. It felt nice to finally say everything that I've been meaning to tell her.

To be honest, I'm looking forward to her growth. If she'd turn to be the amazing person they pictured her after she learned from her mistakes, I don't mind if she'd be the one who would end up with Archer. For sure, with her outstanding academic achievements, she could be a great pair to him.

I shook my head and sighed. I didn't know why I was thinking of it so lightly. It was very unusual that I didn't feel any pinch of pain in my heart. Not sure if I got really numb, but if that was the case, I shouldn't also be smiling. Or it could be because I'm finally living in acceptance.

They weren't lying when they said that you would only feel true happiness without regret, anger and pain, once you learn the importance and value of acceptance.

Imagine if all the unforgettable fun memories you've treasured are roses, and the thorns which come along with it are the pain we've felt along the way. If we would continue to live in bed full of roses with thorns which would give us constant pain, we would never move on because we would always be reminded of the pain. It's for us to decide whether to throw away all those thorned-roses, or to cut those thorns, one-by-one, and keep the roses on your bed.

If I were to choose among those two options, I would choose the second one. I know it would be hard and it would take a lot of effort, but I know it would be worth it. I wouldn't let the pain take away and make me forget the times when I felt excited, happy and loved.

"I'm really sorry that I can't be with you tonight."

I chuckled as I counted inside my head how many times Sharry apologized. We planned to have a sleepover at my house tonight, but she and Jethro would hangout until midnight to make up for their monthsary celebration last night. Hindi rin kasi alam ni Sharry na nagpareserve si Jethro kahapon sa isang restaurant. Nalaman niya lang noong nakauwi na siya.

She was guilty for not showing up, but I was also feeling guilty for I was the reason why she wasn't able to come.

"Next week talaga, I promise. We can go have a staycation and relax on weekend," she told me.

"Sha, hindi na kailangan..." sabi ko at saka iniliko ang sasakyan papasok sa aming subdivision.

"Keia, this is not just for you. We need this break. Malapit na ang finals pati ang schedule for defense. Magsaya muna tayo bago umiyak," paliwanag niya sa akin. "Ako na ang bahala maghanap, ah? Okay na ba na sa Tagaytay?"

I almost rolled my eyes. Sharry and her love for travel. Hindi ko alam kung bakit laging ako ang nadadamay kapag gusto niyang mag-out of town. Not that I didn't want to, but she could invite her boyfriend instead. Sa totoo lang ay mas gusto kong magstay lang sa bahay at humilata sa aking kama lalo na kapag walang gagawin.

"Ikaw na ang bahala. Anywhere is fine."

"Okay! Tagaytay it is!"

For sure ay nagsisimula na siyang maghanap sa Airbnb ng condo unit na for rent dahil saglit siyang natahimik bago muling nataranta.

"Ay! Jethro's here already! Alis na kami. Bye. Love you!" Dire-diretsong sabi ni Sharry at mabilis na pinatay ang tawag.

After we finished our call, I stepped on the break when I arrived in front of our house. I was relieved when I saw my parents' car on the garage.