Affliction | ✓

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phew, what a ride.

ok, so this is just an extended version of the previous note. I'm so immensely grateful that you guys clicked the story link (no matter if you're from R4R or not) and read the whole thing, sticking w me & growing w me!

I think when I look back at my writing, I can see a big difference from chap.1 to chap.23 so thank you for watching me learn how to write coherently whoops hehe.

so much to talk about Ella & Noah:

1) as i have reiterated time and again, just because noah had a tragic past does not mean he's allowed to be an asshole. it's not an excuse and it's fiction, baby. if I was Ella, he would not get a second chance.

2) noah had clinical depression & ella used to have depression & anorexia & it is the best best best solution for you to get immediate help, no need to bottle things up. get professional, good sound advice. they dragged their butts to college for a reason so all the things they're spewing isn't total crap. your friends, though might be good emotional support aren't as good as (expensive I know) therapists.

3) I wanted to make the ella-noah dynamic longer tbh like,, I felt ella forgave him a bit too fast, is 4 months enough to form a good rapport w your bully? seems too less.

4) so, ive gotten this question from a IRL friend & im guessing some of you might have the similar query:

How was Elio so chill about letting Ella go?

ok well, elio is first & foremost ella's bestfriend. he was her major support system throughout her later years. he knew, he always always had an inkling that she might not be quite over noah. anyway, I kinda left elio-ella pre-relationship in the gray area because it wasn't important for the story (not really, like I did talk about the basics) so you're welcome to find a lovely backstory for them.

5) initially, i was not gonna make noah and ella endgame and let noah grow as an individual and be bff's w ella because ella & elio were so adorable :((( but noah started growing on me like a parasite so i didn't want my homeboi noah to be alone

Sigh, I swear it's super important to make an outline of your story. I write almost all of my shit on my phone and it's so messy and not very well thought-out hence why half my shit is so rushed & doesn't seem so well-written.

Thank you once again for reading this story! I would like to take time to rewrite some parts but I have no time :(((( but I hope you're happy w this story and the mess of it.