(Idk if there's still a trigger warning necessary for that chapter but if so, y'all have been warned.
{ POV Benji }
Jorge ran out of my house, you couldn't overhear how heartbroken he was by the way he was crying.
I fell onto my bed and hid my face in my hands.
What do I even feel right now?
I am an awful human. I made someone hurt themselves and didn't say anything.
I made Jorge hurt himself. He was everything to me and I didn't care that he was hurt.
Deeply inside my heart, he still is everything to me, even tho that place is surrounded by anger right now it wasn't an excuse to let him down like that.
Why do I always take so long to realize what I did?
I can't think before I speak, I just say things and regret it instantly but don't have the courage to take it back.
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{ Almost four weeks later }
I still haven't talked to Jorge.
Why?
Because I think he fell out of love anyway and I couldn't find the right words.
I wasn't that mad at him as I used to be and thought about him every moment.
Once I wanted to go to the place where we first met but I saw Jorge sitting on our bench, crying.
It would have been the perfect moment to talk to him but I think I wasn't ready at that point, so I just made my way back home, hoping he hasn't noticed me.
I guess I just cleared my mind and tried to find out what I would have done in his situation.
Definitely not the same he did. But we are not the same person. We think differently and have different emotions.
He fucked up a lot, but I am still not over him and I couldn't get over him without apologizing.
Today is gonna be the day.
I will ask him to come over.
But how? I don't want to sound desperate.
{ Chat }
Benji
Can you come? In two hours at mine.
sent; 17:01 p.m
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Jorge
read; 17:23 p.m
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{ Chat ends }
Great, he left me on read.
I almost knew he wouldn't come so I sat on my bed and a few tears escaped my eyes.
I decided to go for a walk.
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𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓃𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝓌𝑒 𝓂𝑒𝓉 - a #benjey story
Fanfiction„Benjamin Krol, yep, that's me, and you're hopefully about to read the story how the boy who completely messed with my head and I ended up." ________ Hey! This is my first story on this platform. Please note that English is not my first language. :)...
