Life Written Poems

Life Written Poems 3

Even Though I Am In Heaven...

　

When you're broken between your silence and your sudden urge to speak

You realize you voice is withered and weak

When your heart beats again but not for the right one

Then you know any of your chances are already done

When your dreams burn down from within the sky

You wonder what it'll take you to be able to fly

You ask for one reason to let it all go

But deep down inside you already know

When you suddenly drown to the bottom of your fear

You know there is no escape that is anywhere near

You try to find an exit when there are none

As the days go by you beg for some sun

When your eyes do not open and your heart does not beat

Then soon god's angel you will meet

You say in your prayers if I shall not wake

Then I pray to god my soul to take

When you finally realize you're not ready to go

Then your sins and your soul to the world you must show

You wonder why everything is not that easy

Then you notice your need to go on is measly

When your nights become cold and your days are all bitter

Then you beat yourself up for realizing you're a quitter

You sit down and try to write it in a song

But you finally notice it won't help you get along

When you hear his voice interrupt your prayer

Then you finally know that for sure he is there

You close your mind off to the rest of the world

While you sit in the corner crying and curled

When you decide to go in the direction you should have never stepped

Then you hear that same reminder of the promise you never kept

You try to take it back but it's already too late

So it's time to face the man and be given your fate

When you want to be held and told you are loved

Then your remaining bad memories are finally shoved

You think that everything is going to be okay

But your happiness only lasted for a day

When you think everything will be better

Then there is your sign you're a terrible forgetter

When your world comes crashing down

Don't strain your muscles to try and frown

When god officially takes your soul

Then the price you must pay will be a fine toile

But you hear someone say your name

As they cry in the middle of the night you feel shame

When you look down on the world and you see the people who cry

You will sit and ponder on the reason why

You never saw that you were needed at home

Then you begin to wish you had previously known

When you think of how young you are to be dead

Then the images begin to float through your head

When you sacrifice your life to god

Then all you can do is sit by wait and nod

When you notice the tears on your mother's face

You send her a message through the stars in space

I love you mommy so please don't cry

I know I was young but don't keep wondering why

When I'd stay up late every night and feel all alone

I forgot that I truly wasn't on my own

I left you and now I am here

But through this all I have not shed one tear

When you think of me remember my smile

And don't forget it'll only be for a little while

Soon you will join me in heaven too

And as mother and daughter the sky we will woo

When my seventeenth birthday decides to pass

Don't let your emptiness and sorrow forever last

Because I'm up here in this world

And you can still hold onto your same little girl

When I'd finally lay my head down to rest

I knew that I'd barely be able to pass my test

When I gave in I prayed to god and said if I shall not wake

Then I pray onto you my soul to take

When you think of me please do not weep

Only the good memories should be the ones that you keep

I love you and I want you to know

That even though I am in heaven I'll never let you go.