Love covers a multitude of sins, but it does not cover being obese. Sorry, that is how I feel. My family telling me I am not fat, when I clearly am - my BMI tells me so. I am Obese 3 - 3!
So I say it again, love covers a multitude of sins, but not obesity - especially if you are categorized as obese 3! When and how did this happen? I am disgusted with myself!
(And don't say I shouldn't feel this way about myself because yes, I should. How else am I going to get better if I don't face the truth - embrace the reality of what has happened to me? I can't. So yeah, I am disgusted with myself.)
I tried to deny it but I can't think about anything, except how disappointed I am with myself. I went to the ER a few days ago, they ran some lab results and I just checked them online. Unsettling news.
In the report it hinted that I may have some kidney or liver damage and that my BMI is 44.4. My weight is killing me! And now it is getting real. If I don't shape up, I am going to die!
I am frustrated. I can't stop crying. I must - MUST get my act together.
You may say it's not that serious yet and you are right. I don't want it to get any worse, meaning I must seriously start living healthy.
So, a couple things that I learned about the health risks of obesity.
Obesity is a medical condition in which a high amount of body fat increases the chance of developing medical problems (like the ones that I have.)
People with obesity have a higher chance of developing these health problems:
High blood glucose (sugar) or diabetes. ✔️
(Right now mine is 200-300.)
High blood pressure (hypertension). ✔️
(Mine ranges around 150/100 115)
High blood cholesterol and triglycerides (dyslipidemia, or high blood fats). ✔️
(I don't remember the numbers but they are bad. And my good cholesterol is in the 20's. My heart doctor said he has never seen anything like it before - especially for women.)
Heart attacks due to coronary heart disease, heart failure, and stroke.
(All I can say is God has clearly been looking over me.)
Bone and joint problems, more weight puts pressure on the bones and joints. This can lead to osteoarthritis, a disease that causes joint pain and stiffness. ✔️
Stopping breathing during sleep (sleep apnea).
(I wake up several times because of this. Sometimes, I wake up every hour.)✔️
This can cause daytime fatigue or sleepiness, poor attention, and problems at work. ✔️
Gallstones and liver problems. ✔️
Some cancers. ✔️
Look at all the checks I have! I cannot afford to play around with my life.
Three things can be used to determine if a person's body fat gives them a higher chance of developing obesity-related diseases:
Body mass index (BMI)
Waist size (I should take my measurements.)
Other risk factors the person has (a risk factor is anything that increases your chance of getting a disease).
I am going to make signs and place them everywhere! My goal is to lose at least 5 lbs. in a week. And then another five the following week. And so on, until I lose 150 pounds.
I keep blaming stress, my crazy driving schedule, how tired I am, or how I ache to keep me from doing right. This routine is changing. Nothing or no-one is to blame but me and my eating style and lack of exercise. Wow, walking for ten minutes is not exercise when you can do more. It's a cop out.
Praying for a better day tomorrow. I want to look on the mirror and be proud of who I see looking back at me.
Day 7
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90 Days: A Journey Towards Health
AcakAn overweight woman trying to improve her health. Journaling to motivate herself.
