Chaos ×× Colby Brock

It's Impossible

Salem

my mind wonders far away on days like this. I had decided to spend the day with my mom, so I was bored out of my mind while she made a "quick" trip to work.

There have been thoughts eating at me for weeks now, and I needed to talk to my mom about it. She was my all time best friend, always knew what to say in every situation. My mom kept it real with me at all times, that's one of the many reasons we are so close. She never lied to me, and if she did, it was in hopes of keeping my feelings unharmed.

So for the next thirty minutes, I laid upon my old bed, and figured out how to bring the situation. I had never been the type to talk about a boy, in fact, I had never really had feelings for a boy. I had my fun here and there in highschool, something I was never proud of, and that's why it's so scary to be head over heels for Colby.

The kid has my attention twenty four seven, I was dying to know when we were gonna make it official. Of course, I knew he wouldn't leave me, he was to attached to me, like the way I am for him. But something about having a label is what really sealed the deal. Don't get me wrong, we've talked about it, we are both on the same page. The two of us are just to pussy to SAY anything. We both feared change. We didn't want to ruin something between us. It's no secret that I love him. Everyone was starting to catch on, and it's only a matter of time before we make it known.

when tho?

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"So that's up chick, what's on your mind?", I poke at my food awkwardly as I think about what to say.

what if she tells me I'm crazy and that I don't know what love is?

I drop my fork, giving her my full attention, "I'm scared, I don't know."

A wave of concern washes over her face as she stares in confusion, "Why? Did something happen Salem? You can tell me."

here goes nothing.

"I'm in love with Colby, Mom. And I don't know how to tell him. What if he leaves me like dad?", my throat was closing slowly and I knew I had to hurry and blink before the tears come. I couldn't let my mom see my cry, I'm supposed to be the strong one.

she gave me a small pout, "baby, you can't turn a hookup into a relationship. you may think you love him, but you dont. he is a great kid, but you guys aren't compatible."

My heart shoots up and I send her a glare, did she really just say that. Does she not know how happy I am with Colby? does she not realize how close we have become and she has the nerve to say we aren't compatible?

"This is why we don't talk about what's on my mind, you are so negative.", I had no energy to sit here and argue. So I picked up my bag, keys, and phone making my way towards the front door.

I ignore her yells for me, and get in my car before i start to feel bad for leaving. For once, I just wanted people to understand that I was happy. I'm just scared to fall deep in love, because of my past.

i send a quick text to Colby before driving off, "Im coming back to LA. mom was being... rude? Can I come over?"

No matter how hard I tried to hold back the tears I couldn't, I was hurt and I don't know why. maybe she was looking after me?

no Salem, she doesn't understand.

Coalbee:

of course, everything okay?

Salem:
I asked for advice... she was just being rude
do you think it's impossible for us to be in a relationship one day?
can we turn a hookup into a relationship

Coalbee:

Baby, stop worrying. everything with us is okay. You worry about driving, we will talk later.
just remember, we will prove people wrong. maybe not now, or tomorrow but we will. and if we don't, than oh well. but for now, i love you always.

Salem:

I love you...

but for now, i love you always.

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*this is a filler chapter that my friend wrote because i had to write some really important chapters for you guys! very sorry it's not the best and that it's short, i just really needed something to post.*