♡Sanders Sides Oneshots♡

~ Together {Prinxiety}

((TW:
Mention of self harm,
Mention of Suicide,
Swearing,
Angst that I wrote at 3 am))

I'm bored and idk wht to do with my uneventful life anymore, so have this I guess. If its terrible, don't tell me bc I already know. My brain is melting rn so yh. This might be terrible :')

•~~•♡♡•~~•

Virgil:

I checked the time on my phone. 2 am. Time to get something to eat. 'Should I take you...... Nah.' I decided to leave my phone in my room as I got up and went to the kitchen. I searched around being as quiet as possible and found some chips. "Yeah, they'll do," I mumbled. I was there for about a minute eating and decided to go back to my room before I made any noise by knocking something over or something and then waking everyone up and "being a failure"

'I might listen to some Marina for a change' I thought about who to listen to on my way back to my room. I was at my door and saw a dim light under Roman's door. 'He's never up at 2 am-'
"...I envy the spiders, the squirrels and seeds
They all find their way automatically..."
He played the piano? What? It's surprising because we all have our own unique talent like being able to play different instruments... but he was playing like a God. Damn. I got to his door and opened it a little.
"...But in this Handmade Heaven, I come alive
Bluebirds forever colour the sky.
In this Handmade Heaven we forget the time,
'Cause birds of a feather fly together."
Wow.... I was eating my chips as he played and as he finished the chorus I started to choke on one. Great timing. Just amazing.

Roman:

It was 2 am. I couldn't sleep. There was... someone on my mind. I'm not sure why. He's nothing like me. He's my opposite, if you'd like. I wasn't tired at this point and I was staring at my piano (yes, I play the piano), itching to practice a song that I was determined to learn. Handmade Heaven. I got up and sat myself in front of the piano, placing my fingers in position of the first chord. I took a deep breath and sang.
"I envy the birds high up in the trees
They live out their lives so purposefully...
I envy the spiders, the squirrels and seeds
They all find their way automatically...
But in this Handmade Heaven, I come alive
Bluebirds forever colour the sky.
In this Handmade Heaven we forget the time,
'Cause birds of a feather fly together-" I was stopped by someone coughing in the doorway of my room. I instantly shot up to see if they were ok.

"Oh my god, are you alright?" I asked as the coughs became less and less frequent until they came to a halt. "I'm fine Princey..." he replied. "Virge? What are you doing awake at this hour? I thought everyone was asleep." I asked. I never really thought he'd be a night owl... But I really don't know why that surprised me as much as it did. "I don't sleep much at all. I normally only get 2 hours of sleep... sometimes 3, sometimes 1"
"Virgil, that isn't healthy... You need more sleep. I'm concerned Virge. I really am. I'm very concerned. " For an unknown reason he gave me a look of guilt - and I'm pretty sure he was tearing up too - and he mumbled a quiet "I'm so sorry Roman..." and he gave me a hug.

Obviously not missing the chance, I hugged him back. 'Why is he so adorable? He's gonna kill me with his cuteness someday.' I had a sudden rush of confidence take over me and I left a soft kiss on his head. "Why are you apologizing Virgil? You don't need to."
"B-But... I made you concerned... I d-don't want you to worry about me I-I don't wanna get in the way of anything-"
"Virge, I worry about you every day... And I need you to know that you get in the way of absolutely nothing. And worrying about you just reminds me how much I..." I took a deep breath. "... I love you..." I was expecting him to reject me or something but instead, I got a soft pair of lips on mine. I was taken back for a second but I kissed back almost straight (g a y) away. After about a minute, which felt like forever, we pulled away. I've never seen Virgil as happy as this and his smile made my heart melt. He's gonna be the death of me. "I love you too, Roman!" he said, smiling like an idiot... but after a minute or so, his smile faded. He looked terrified.

"Virgil? Are you ok?" I asked gently. Silence. "Virg-"
"shut. up. shut up. Shut up shutupshutup SHUT UP!" He screamed, tearing at his hair and beginning to cry.
"Oh my- Virgil-
"nonononononono GO AWAY! SHUT UP! JUST- STOP ALREADY!"

Virgil:

"Failure. Worthless. Nothing. A nobody. He doesn't really love you. He only said that because he pities you, he doesn't really care. You know that, Virgil. You know nobody would ever truly love someone like you. You're just a pathetic waste of space. You deserve to die. Get that razor. Die. Be a sad, lonley wimpish emo for the rest of your life. Die. Nobody truly accepts you. Not even Patton."
The voice came back. I felt my back hit the wall. "NO, EVERYONE DOES LOVE ME I DONT CARE WHAT YOU SAY!" I screamed trying to fight against the volume of the voice. "Why don't you shut up? Everyone else would get along better if you didn't talk to them and you just disappeared. And I know you do care about what I say. Why else would you have taken my advice when you used to c-"
"SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP."
"You fucking cry baby. You're  always so... Paranoid. You're a failure. Take my advice again. Get that razor. Die. You know everyone would be better without you."
I gave up. I was too weak to fight against it. It got louder and louder. I felt someone's arms pick me up. Princey. "YOU'RE BETTER OFF DEAD. DIE YOU LITTLE BITCH. KILL YOURSELF. I HATE YOU. EVERYONE HATES YOU. YOU'RE FUCKING DISGUSTING. YOU'RE AN ABOMINATION. ROMAN HATES YOU. LOGAN HATES YOU. PATTON HATES YOU. THOMAS HATES YOU. YOU. ARE. A. FUCKING. TRAITOR." I was crying a waterfall at this point. I could feel it. I didn't know what was going on around me. All incould hear was the chanting voice, and my eyes were closed tightly.

Roman:

I was frozen in place from the overwhelming panic. I couldn't think of anything to calm stormcloud down until I remembered something. I quickly picked him up bridal style and sat on my bed with him. He clung onto my shirt and I could feel his tears through my shirt. "You poor thing." I mumbled resting my head on his. I took a deep breath and started to sing.
"I see you when you're down and depressed
Just a mess.
I see you when you cry, when you're shy, when you wanna die.
I see you when you smile, takes a while, at least you're here.
I see you. Yes, I see you..."
Virgil's breathing was calming down and the flow of his tears slowed down. I knew this would work.
"I see you when you hide, and when you lie it's no surprise.
I see you when you run from the light within your eyes.
I see you when you think that I dont notice all those scars
I see you. Yes, I see you."
His breathing was almost back to normal and his tears had almost stopped.

Virgil:

The voice was so, so loud. I couldn't take it. I felt someone grab me and cradle me in their arms. It was most definitely Roman but I didn't care who it was and I clung onto their shirt. I felt as if I was about to pass out but suddenly, a noise pierced the yelling of the voice. A sweet sound. The sound of Roman singing one of my favourite songs. The more he sang, the more my anxiety dulled down into a more tranquil state. After a while, I was fully calmed down and my head was nuzzled into his chest. He was rubbing circles into my back, giving me extra comfort. "Feeling better, Stormcloud?"
"Yeah. Thank you, Ro." I smiled up at Roman, staring into his beautiful eyes lovingly. I grabbed him by the sash and pulled him into a kiss.