Life outside the bullpen

Moving past the hard times

Erin's pov: It's been a week since Jay finally told me that he was married way before I knew him and that he was still technically married and I am shocked. Also it's been a week since he walked out on me which has made me feel very lost again. I'm very upset about the whole situation like why couldn't Jay just tell me about him being married in his past live. Right now I am sitting at home watching some TV drinking a beer when all of a sudden I hear somebody knocking on my door I think it's Hank so I get up and answer it and to my surprise its Jay at my door
E= Jay what are you doing here
J= um I came to talk to you. may I come in
E= sure come in
   

They both walk in and sit down on the couch they don't speak for a few minutes 

J= so what do you want to talk about
E= I don't know Jay you're the one that wanted to talk so talk
J= okay so I am going to talk about the Abby situation
E= that's fine go ahead
J= so yes we were married many years ago but I didn't care about her at all it was a bad time in my life after coming home and dealing with a friend being dead and she was the one who suggested us to get married so we did
E= yeah
J= well after I sobered up a month later I realized  that I shouldn't marry a girl I didn't care much about and we agreed to get a divorce so we both signed the papers and that was the last I saw of her
E= until last week
J= yeah I was shocked when she kept trying to reach me but then when Will tell me she was in Chicago I was still shocked like why was she here when I haven't talk to her in years since she moved back home
E= so what else
J= well when she showed up at the district and told me that she didn't sign the papers and she was getting married for real this time and she needed me to sign the papers again I was pissed at her
E= because you thought she signed them back then
J= Yeah so I asked her where the papers were so I can sign them again she said she had them back at her hotel room and she asked to meet up with her later so I did and that is when she said she didn't actually have anybody else and she only came in to town to catch up with me
E= wow she played you
J= I didn't think she was lying until we met up at the bar and she told me she had nobody else back home
E= for a detective you were kind of dumb
J= yeah I know
E= so I have a question Jay
J= sure what's up
E= so when I came home why were you packing a bag to go stay at Will's
E= well I figured once I told you about Abbi early or in the day and how angry you look I figured you were done with me since I lied to you and figured I'd stay at will's  until I figured out a way to talk to you again
E= so you thought since you lied once I didn't want to be in a relationship with you anymore
J= yeah so that's why I decided to leave so I can figure things out
E= well you know what Jay ( she starts getting upset) I was coming home to talk with you about it but then you left do you know how much that hurts me
J= no
E= I was so upset because the man who always told me he will never leave me and be by my side all the time left me
J= I'm so sorry Erin
E=  ( gets angry) you are sorry Joe you have no idea how it feels I finally open up to a guy because I trusted him so much and you left me why jay why
J= I don't know I thought it was for the best
E= it wasn't Jay it hurt me more than you whine about having an ex-wife. I was ready to talk to you about it when I got home from work to talk through it that night but you made the choice to leave me because you thought I couldn't help you. You've always told me to lean on you about anything like to talk about the Nadia stuff but the thing is Jay you have barely told me anything about your past why is it that I'm giving 70% into this relationship and you've only gave me 30. Do you think it's time to finally let me be there for you like always been there for me
J= you're why I haven't been fair toward you in this week being away from you I will as to how much I hurt you when I left and how much I I haven't told you about my past so is there anything you want to know I will tell you everything
E= I want to know everything J but I think we need to build a relationship up again from this hard place that were in so we just need to build up on our friendship again
J= I understand just tell me when you're ready to talk
E= yeah I will
J= all right I will get going then
E= yeah I'll walk you to the door
( They wall to the door)
J= so I will see you at work tomorrow okay
E= okay i'm surprise Hank hasn't noticed the way we been acting and hasn't gotten to kick you out of the unit yet
J= actually he has a couple days ago
E= wow what did he say
J= he asked if there was trouble at home and I told him we were working on it he said he heard it all before and said we need to get it together and get back to doing our jobs or I was done in the unit
E= well I guess we got to get it together or I will lose my back up for good
J= and we can't have that happen so here
( he gives her key back)
E= no Jay you keep it
J= are you sure
E= I am May need it sometime in the future when you need to come get  me out of my bed
J= that's true all right then see you tomorrow text if you need anything
E= I will see you
 
Authors note: I hope you liked how I explained Jay getting married in Vegas thing. Also please give me your feedback on how I'm doing each chapter because this is total in my head fantasy since we never got to see Erin  and Jay work past the  break up and get back together.