The Internship

Chapter Twenty Two

"Go ahead, let it out."

Namjoon spoke after stopping in a dark park. No one to be found, city heard in the distance.

"What do you mean?"

Jisu questioned as she looked up towards the sky, stars spread across faintly. He gave a humorless laugh, sighing.

"You can't hide it from me, you're holding it in. I pulled you out quickly cause I saw your eyes watering up. I don't know if it's from frustration or sadness, or even both, but just let it out here. Kick a tree, breakdown and cry, whatever. I'm right here, go ahead."

She brought her head down slowly, and looked him in the eyes. A few seconds later she ran towards a thick tree behind him, and went all out. Punching, kicking, screaming, using up all her energy. After a while Namjoon pulled her away, calming her down.

"Alright, that's enough Jisu. You're already leaving welts on your hands from the hits."

She began to sob loudly, falling to her knees. Every other second she smacked the ground beneath her, and tears made darker spots on it. She then began heaving and speaking through each breath.

"I don't understand! Why do you all have to tell me you have feelings for me?! Why do I have to feel the same way?! Why is it I can't even speak about my ideas without having six others turn on me in anger and disappointment?! Even you yourself are angry with it! And the seventh boy who claims he loves me and has feelings decides to practically call me a whore and yell at me and slam shit in front of you all! How the hell do you even process this?! You know why I want to leave? Because I can't deal with this shit anymore! Choosing and having to deal with feelings and thoughts of one another! I figured out of sight out of mind! But no, it doesn't work like that! Namjoon I don't know what to do anymore!"

He picked her up, and sat her on a bench next to him, leaning her on his shoulder. He waited for her sobs to calm, and began speaking.

"Jisu, you don't have to choose. Don't put yourself in misery and frustration just because of a choice. If you want to leave, then leave. Don't let anything hold you back."

She looked up, eyes red and tired looking.

"If it was that easy for me, I would've done so. But I actually have care, and don't want to leave you guys. Plus just getting up and going isn't easy."

Namjoon rested his hand on her head, giving a faint sigh.

"It is if you go through with it. But you making it difficult shows you really don't want to go, and that you'd rather stay."

Jisu became a little irritated, knowing that was true. She paused for a moment, then opened her mouth.

"Obviously I love staying here. But I don't want to be stressed out. What should I do here? I'm just so confused."

"Flat out say I'm choosing no one. No dating just friends. They'll be mad, but if they care, they'll still stick with you."

She gave a laugh, shaking her head.

"Namjoon, you sound like a moral therapist. But, don't you like me as well?"

He gave a nod, exhaling.

"Yes, but I also care about you very much. That's why I'd rather make you feel better, and help you reach higher in happiness."

Jisu smiled, putting her hand over his.

"Thank you. I wish they all thought the same."

"Oh they do, trust me." He spoke quickly. "As selfish and childish they may seem, they think like me. Only they don't show it. Hence if they're all like that, you shouldn't pick just one. Instead just pick none. Now let's head back before they think I took you to America."

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Namjoon locked the door behind them both, seeing the house was dark, everyone already went to sleep. Jisu turned to look at him, sighing.

"What now?"

He looked around the darkness, shrugging.

"Just rest or sit in your room I guess. I'm really tired so that's what I'm doing."

She gave a nod, turning down the hallway.

"Night Namjoonie."

He gave a small laugh while heading towards his room, not replying.

Jisu sighed as she pushed her door open, but paused as she saw Jhope sitting in his bed of his shared room, door cracked open. He looked up and locked with her eyes, keeping contact. She scoffed, and looked away, walking into her room.

"Jisu wait-"

The door slammed in his face, cutting him off. She locked the bottom, and sat on her bed, grabbing her phone.

"Jisu please let me in. Let's talk."

"Fuck you Hobi."

She hissed from anger, going back to her phone. He gave a frustrated sigh, speaking calmly through the door.

"I know you're angry, but please reconcile with me."

She turned on her side towards the wall, as if to block him out. After moments of silence, Jhope sucked his teeth, and tapped on the door.

"I'll stay here all night if I have too. When you're ready let me know."

You could hear his back sliding down the door, and a thump from him sitting. Jisu looked over at the door, giving a second thought. She ignored them, and went back into her position.

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Jisu yawned and looked at the time from her phone.

'Two hours, and he's still out there. Let me at least hear him out.'

She pulled her blanket over, and got out of her bed, stretching. Slowly walking over to the door, she unlocked it, and opened it halfway. He looked up from his same spot, smiling.

"So you'll talk with me?"

"Shut up and get in, ten minutes and that's all."