dear hongjoong,
by the time you get this letter
it will either be cleaning week and a long awkward conversation will happen
or i killed 'myself
for my sake i hope it's the second one
you have been a phenomenal leader,
'dad' and
friend.
it was my blade you and seonghwa found
i think deep down you knew it was mine
but you didn't want it to be true
that's why you didn't call me out on it
i love you, 'dad'
i hope you know that
i'm not doing this to hurt you
i'm doing this because i don't deserve to live
i don't deserve you
i don't deserve our atiny
i don't deserve love
i don't deserve anything
you probably think i deserve everything
but i don't just ask them
they are you
your voices
you and the others
your voices are telling me to kill myself
that atiny don't like me
and i believe them
so to my beloved hongjoong
goodbye
YOU ARE READING
hey
Fanfictionsan is in a really dark place. he writes seven letters one for each member. you'll see those at the end though. for now we'll just see his diary entries. // short chapters// lowercase intended// formerly known as r.e.v.i.r.d.e.r.//
