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| sunday december 5th 6:58 PM |
i open the door and an immediate smile forms on my face almost as if it was a habit. seeing her and smiling. i'm over halfway there to making it become one. it takes exactly sixty six days to form a habit, making seeing her and smiling a part of my day to day life. it all started on the first day i saw her at the party, i couldn't help but smile. she was compelling in every way and it drew me into her.
"can we just nap?" she sighs quietly, looking tired. you could tell from the bags under her eyes and how droopy they looked. it almost looked as if she was sad. "yeah of course. what's wrong?" i ask her, knitting my eyebrows together. i was as curious as ever. i wanted to help make her feel happier. i'd do anything i could. honest.
"nothing" she laughs. it didn't seem like a fake laugh or a lying nothing, it sounded like it really was nothing. "nia and i were up all night. i had like maybe three hours of sleep." she groans as she walks inside with me to get away from the cold air. i shut the door quickly behind her and look back at her tired face. "come on." i say squatting down some indicating that she could jump on my back so i could give her a piggy back ride. she jumps on there with no hesitation and i start to walk up the stairs. "am i not too heavy?" she winces laying her forehead in the crook of my neck. i could feel her soft breaths hit my back, it actually made me a little nervous for some reason and i dong even know why. maybe i'm scared of falling back wards, not that she's heavy. i'm just nervous for some reason.
"not even close"
when we get in my room she slides off my back and lays down on my bed, staring at me as if she was waiting for me to get in with her. i shut my door quickly, knowing that if my mom was home and she heard how loud the door shut she would have beat my ass. i close my eyes for a second, waiting for a yell before realizing one wasn't going to come.
i lay down next to her, we were both face to face. i had an overwhelming urge to just kiss her, i always do. back when i said i has something with regina it doesn't even compare to the something i have with cindy after just two months, even if i haven't asked her out yet. i really need to do that soon. i just have to find the perfect time to, when i know the answer is a definite yes.
she lays her head on my chest making me raise my eyebrows some at her actions. she's usually never the one to make the first move...well she really never is so it's confusing and hard to tell if she's into me sometimes but times like these reassure me. times when she's this close to me and times when she's doing nothing but smiling and looking at me. i really like those.
a lot.
i'm honestly not even tired. i woke up really late today and got plenty of sleep, but if sleeping is what she wants to do then sleeping it is.
