Love- Art Of Attractions

16. Us

Ragu pov

In the morning, as usual, she sent a good morning message. I was like is she trying to avoid that message or have she not received it. But I didn't send a good morning message back.

After going to college also I have received a message from her but it was some casual talks.

I was really going insane, this is giving me all stress. I have never been like this in my 22 years of life. I felt like I would have been in some peace if she rejected me.

I can't stay in the class for even an hour. I was checking my watch the entire time I was in class. Immediately after the first-hour lecturer left I came out of class asking Karthi to take notes for me. I sent a message to her saying that I wanted to meet her.

I thought I have to wait until break time to meet her and was waiting near the ground which is our usual meeting spot recently during lunchtime but I didn't inform her I will be here.

In 10 mins I saw her coming, did she too bunk the class for me... But more than that though at the moment, I was mesmerized by her look. She was in a pink salwar with free hair and a small stud in the ear with white stone and a simple little chain in her neck.

She is always so delicate in handling anything and will always say thick jewellery or accessories irritate her. I don't always agree with that but at the moment I felt even the thin chain may hurt her skin.

The moment she noticed where I was her face lit up to a smile and I am dead. I don't know if I can talk to her right now.

I am getting nervous and the thought she may reject me is killing me. I am not even sure of how I will react for a rejection that too after seeing her face again I felt that I can't share her with anyone. The smile is mine.

I stopped my monologue when she came and said "Hi Ragu". Yeah, she stopped calling me senior after learning about my fight with Mathi.

I just 'hmmed as a response.

"So why you didn't respond to my Good morning and other messages" She started the conversation which was easy for me to come to the point directly.

"Why you didn't respond to my message yesterday" I enquired.

"Which message" She acted innocent.

"The one where I confessed that I love you" I blurt out but don't know where I get the confidence from.

Her face looked like she is searching for a reason or excuse and said: "Are you angry with me for that".

" I am not angry but I expect an answer or a response "

" Wait," She said and started searching something in the nearby bush.

She came back with some cute little flowers 🌸🌺🌻🌹🌷🌼💐from the bush and gave it to me and said: "I love you😘".

This was not expected but I am not feeling the happiness I was supposed to get.

She asked me to accept the flowers, I got them but still not in a good mood. I looked into her eyes there was no mischief or lie but I am not feeling right.

She was waiting for my response so I asked " Did you say that because I didn't respond to your good morning "

"Nooo why would you think like that"

"Because I just feel it's not from the bottom of your heart, I don't feel any emotion in that"

"It's not something you can play with, it's not just words, it's kind of a promise for me. I love you because I like everything you do and I want to be with you for the rest of my life"

"I understand what you said and I accept that and I am not playing" She explained.

"I am not saying that you are playing with me but think well take your time and let me know once you decide".

I questioned myself 'why I was ready for rejection but not for an ok' and realized that 'what I want from her is a forever and not a dream which fades when we woke up'

She went to the next bench and sat there for sometimes. She is so good at expressing feeling and I felt, for now, she is searching for correct words to say something to me. After about 10min she came to me to explain what she felt.

She started "So yesterday when I saw your message I felt happy but I didn't think it as a question for which I should respond. I know It's so heartless of me, you know me right"

"But when you ask me for a response or enquire about my feelings towards you it is real. I don't know if I can say I love you forever which I am not sure right now but what I am sure about is now in this very moment I love you"

"Yeah, I had lots of confusion in my mind for the feeling that I had for you and towards love as well. I know I am not a relationship person, I can't take care of someone or even not good at making you smile"

"But when it's you things happen at its own will but what is important is that I am feeling happy about the things happening" "I can understand why you didn't believe me, it's because of my personality but trust me I am serious when I say 'I love you' this very moment.

Promises are to be made only when you are so sure that you will keep it. I don't believe that I can take care of you for my entire life.

I just want to be with you and see your smile for now and once I am so sure that I can take care of you, be there for you and support you in everything you do I will promise then.

I don't know how to react after hearing this confession and I should understand her, she lives in the present.

I should be happy for every moment I am with her,  I will be the happiest person on earth to feel her love even it is a single second and I am confident that one day she will see the 'Us' in 'Our' future.

I nodded at her and said "I'm falling for you more and more. "

A/N

Hi Guys, is there really someone waiting for this story. 😣😣. Pls, send your love to motivate me.