I'm in my room texting Debby again, we've been texting for hours now. Things have been pretty good so far, like really good. Her chat bubble pops up on the screen again.
Debby: Josh, I forgot to tell you.. I actually am seeing somebody. I totally forgot to tell you, sorry! Lol
Debby: We're still friends right??
My stomach drops and I feel my eyes sting a little. Don't freaking cry, stupid. My heart aches a little bit and I just feel like curling up and sleeping for awhile. I knew this was too good to be true.
Josh: Ofc :) I'm happy to be your friend!
Debby: Yay! :D
She's been kind of flirting with me though. Guess I shouldn't have been hopeful, I just thought maybe... oh well though. I'm used to being alone with nothing but my anxiety. I can't take talking to her right now, so I'm going to just tell her I'm tired. Which, isn't a lie, I really am tired.
Josh: Hey, I'm actually pretty tired so I was thinking I might go to bed. Ttyl?
Debby: Sure, night!
Josh: Night :)
I sigh and turn my phone off. My heart beats faster and my breathing gets heavy. Not now, not now. I grab onto my blankets tightly and I try to focus on a drumming rhythm to calm myself down. It doesn't work.
I'm shaking and before I know it, tears are making themselves welcome on my cheeks. I thrash violently and I can't catch my breath. I don't know what to do, I can not breath.
"MAMA MAMA HELP!" I choke out, as I start to sob.
I hear footsteps pounding towards my room and the door flings open.
"Oh Joshy, shhh shhh," she says quietly.
She gets next to me in bed and pulls me gently into her. She rubs my back in slow, calming circles and tells me to breath slowly in and out. I do what she tells me to and I hold her tightly. After several minutes, my breathing is normal again and I feel exhausted.
"I'm sorry mama," I whisper weakly.
"Shhh baby boy it's okay, it's okay. Just get some sleep for mama, okay?"
I nod and let go of her. She kisses my forehead and quietly walks out, shutting my door behind her. I pull the blankets up to my chin and finally sleep after tossing and turning for awhile.
A/N: okay... I think I'm finally going to introduce Tyler next chapter!!! Yayyyy. Stay alive :D
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FanfictionJosh was always a very shy and very anxious person... Tyler, was once happy but lately he can hardly feel a smile deep inside himself. What would happen if two broken and flawed people were to meet? Could it possibly save them both from theirselves?
