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Trust?

Quick A/N: Uh can we admire how adorable Josh looks in that pic??? Ahhhh, alright that's it lol.

Tyler's POV

I thankfully snap out of my thoughts and focus on the loud banging on the door. Geez, the dude can't be any louder. He's gonna bust the dang door open.

I rush to the door, cus like, I'm not about to pay if this guy breaks my door. I throw the door open and then realize how eager and excited I probably just acted. Oops.

Wow. What?? He looks adorable, um am I gay? Nah, probably not. But hot dang he's like wow... I feel like I'm gonna drool or something but I come back to my senses.

"Hey, man, glad you made it. Come in"

He smiles at me and his eyes crinkle at the corners. Adorable.

"Thanks! Also, nice house dude." He looks like he's in awe with my boring house. I catch myself grinning at his excitement and awe. Wow, I haven't smiled in like.. well, since it happened. Since I lost them. I twitch my head quickly and avert my attention back to Josh.

"Sooo like do u play MarioKart?" I ask him. I must sound like a complete nerd. He rolls his eyes but smiles. I still feel embarrassed, though.

"Yeahhh ugh my little brother basically forces me too after I get back from the music store every day." He smiles and laughs a little bit.

"Dude no way you go there every single day??" That's sick! But why everyday?

"Oh uh like.. drum sets are kinda like pricey and stuff. So I just practice on theirs everyday. Don't have my own." His face fills with a bright blush. I feel really bad now for embarrassing him, I didn't mean to.

"Oh, cool! I uh have a drum set if you ever wanna practice here maybe?" I lift my arm and motion for him to follow me down to the basement.

I then notice that he's staring pretty intently at my arms and I'm wondering why... Then I realize I put on a short sleeved shirt. Shoot. I open my mouth to try to say something and he quickly shifts his gaze away. I don't know what to even do to be honest. This is when he's going to just leave. Nobody wants a cut up freak for a friend.

He looks heartbroken.. why? I don't think he really cares that much does he? Even though I try to always keep my guard up at all times and keep my poker face on... I just feel like I need to open up, get some weight off my chest. I've never spoken about my life that much, only to my notebook and instruments. Only to God.

Sure, I see counselors every week but the visits are just me going "mhm, mhm, yea, no, no, mhm, sure, ok, mhm." So yeah, you can imagine how helpful those are. Ugh I honestly hate those visits but whatever. The lady is nice and I get a piece of candy after each visit. Though, all I do is stare at the floor and say the same 3 words over and over again. Whatever.

I was going to just bring him downstairs to my instruments and my tv with all my video games. Instead, I sit down on the couch and nod my head in a way so he knows to sit next to me.

"Tyler," He takes a shallow breath before continuing, "hey.. are you um okay?" He looks down in thought for a few seconds, then he continues. "I uh, I'm here for you, I promise I am. You can talk to me. Look I know, I know we just met but there's something about you.. please," tears are forming in his mocha eyes and I feel so sad, seeing him like this. "Please, just talk to me, I'm here."

I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do. I slowly reach out and wipe the tear off his face. He gives me a faint smile and just looks at me with his perfect eyes. I could get lost in his eyes so easily, I don't understand this feeling. I'm so confused, but yet, it's a good feeling.

For the first time ever.. I feel like I can talk about anything, even them. Maybe even BlurryFace? But I don't wanna scare him off. Somehow, though, I don't think Josh is going anywhere.

Honestly, I think, I trust him. I don't know how, I met this dude yesterday, literally. But, I don't know, I just want to be by his side and tell him everything. Be strong for him when he is weak, protect him..

Josh Dun and I may just become best friends someday. I really hope so.

I stare into his eyes again and open my mouth to start speaking.

A/N: sorry for the kind of short chapters lately. I'll try to write longer chapters lol I promise! By the way, Trigger Warning for next chapter. It's going to be a long chapter. Tyler and Josh are basically going to talk about their lives. Yes, Tyler is going to talk about them, and also other things too. If suicide, self harm, or anything along those lines is a serious trigger to you... I advise not reading the chapter. Thank you. Stay alive :D