A Thousand Years

The hard truth

Hysteria-Aruvn

Ethan P.O.V

'I knew it! I fucking knew it' I thought  ' I knew that they were a thing. How could I be such an idiot? He is pushing me away because he likes Sarah.'    I flung myself on my bed. I wasn't sure if I should scream? Cry? Both? I felt betrayed. Not because Benny didn't tell me that he like Sarah but that he felt like he could talk to me about it and went behind my back. Does he not trust me anymore? Did Sarah replace me?  I also felt betrayed by my feelings. How could they let me fall for my best friend like that?  They had to have known that he was not interested in me like that.  Hell, I should have known that. My phone started to ring.  Without checking I knew it was Benny. I ignored it. Sarah called me next and I ignored that too. I wanted to wallow in my sadness and broken heartedness.  To further ignore them I turned my phone off. Why are they calling me for? To ask for my blessing? To rub it in my face that they are together? I don't want to hear anything from them. He broke my heart without even knowing it. He is just ...

"ETHAN, MOM SAYS COME DOWN FOR DINNER"  my sister yelled pulling me out of my depressive stupor. 

I didn't want to be around people and I definitely don't want to go downstairs and be interrogated by my mom. I just don't want to be around anyone. 

"ETHAN!" Jane called again. " MOM SAID COME-"

"What!? I heard you the first time," I shouted back " You being so annoying. Just leave me alone."

I never talked back let alone yelled at Jane. Ever. Any other time I would guilty for snapping at her but I couldn't be bothered today. 

"ETHAN COME DOWN HERE AND APOLOGIES TO YOUR SISTER  " My dad's voice boomed. No avoiding the damage I have done. 

I reluctantly went downstairs to see my disapproving parents and a sad Jane waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs. 

"Ethan apologies to your sister" My dad commanded. 

"Jane I am so sorry for snapping at you. I didn't mean to honestly" I said sincerely. Jane hugged me as a sign of forgiveness. 

" You never snap at anyone. What's going on?" My mom asked.

'I guess there is no going back '  I thought.  "I think Benny and Sarah are dating and I don't know I feel about it. I am hurt and sad and I feel like crying and screaming and I don't want to feel this way. But I do. And I just want all of these feelings to stop." I broke down. 

My mom held me and rubbed my back as I cried. I hated crying and being vulnerable. I hated that this was my reaction when I should be happy that they are together. At the end of the day, they are my friends and I should support them.  Unless they do some dumb shit then I can call them out.  But I still couldn't help but feel sad. 

" Let it all out sweetie,"  my mother cooed. " Shh, its gonna be okay." I was very thankful that I had very soothing parents.  My mom sat me down on the couch and my dad got me some water a sat with us. 

" Will you tell me why the idea of your two best friends being together has got you like this?" she asked once I collected myself.  " Is it because you liked Sarah and Benny didn't show any signs to liking her before?"

"No...kinda... maybe...I don't know." 

"Well try to explain it and we will listen," My dad said.

"Okay for the last two months Benny has been pushing me away and has been blowing off our plans. Also, both he and Sarah are having hushed conversations behind my back. They have been very secretive and earlier today I saw them holding hands and she kissed him on the cheek and I just...." I sighed "I guess I liked how everything was simple and when they trusted me."

"So it's about them not trusting you anymore?" my mom clarified.

"Yes... no... it's more than that," I said 

"So it isn't about them not trusting you but something more?" my dad asked.

"Uggh" I groaned. "It's complicated."

" Well try to explain it to us," my om said softly.

I took a deep breath. "Think that I am feeling this way because I have feelings for-"

"Sarah?" They both asked.

"No... I have feelings for...Benny" I said "And I hate that I can't be happy for him"

" Oh sweetie I'm so sorry," my mom hugged me "In time, the pain will hurt less. if you need space from the both of them that is okay too."

"Your mother is right, son," my dad chimed in " You may not be able to be happy now for them but in time you will. They are your best friends after all. Based on your history with Sarah, they probably didn't want to make you feel bad. But as your mother said, give it time and it will all work out." 

I sighed deeply and nodded. They were right I just need to give it time. I grabbed some dinner and went back to my room to find a woeful looking Benny and Sarah. 'Hey universe this is not what my mom meant by giving it time'  I thought.

" What are you guys doing here?" I asked bitterly. "Don't you have some secret meeting to go to?" I brushed past Benny to set my plate on my desk.

"Ethan we need to talk," Benny said. "Are you okay?"

"Don't worry I am happy for you guys. I just wish you guys trusted me enough to tell me you were dating," I said " So how long have you two been together? Two months?"

"Ethan this is serious," Sarah said "Two mon- what are you even talking about?"

"I saw you two earlier and you know it.  Quit trying to pretend that there is nothing going on between you two," I seethed.  "Now get out of my room you have made your point."

"Ethan, we are just friends. What you saw earlier was me comforting Benny," Sarah said. "But we have bigger fish to fry than who is going out with who," She turned to Benny who looked sick to his stomach." Ben, you have to tell him. Only you can tell him." Sarah walked over to me and hugged me then exited the room via my (now) revolving window.

"Ethan, your gonna wanna sit for this," Benny instructed. He took a deep breath "Ethan, we are in serious trouble. Someone wants us dead and we don't have a lot of time."

Hello, lovely people of the internet!!!!  Oh, how I have missed you all!! I hope you like this chapter!!! Who knew procrastination could help with witters block. I hope to bang-out another two chapters over this holiday season.  That being said Happy early Holidays and see you in the next chapter!!