A Thousand Years

It's all fun and games

(Ethan's Pov)

I am so jealous. I hate that those to have become so buddy-buddy in the last two months or so. I was so scared that when I had my crush on Sarah it would make Benny distant. Now that I have feeling things for Benny those two have become like best friends and it pisses me off that I am going to lose the person I love to the person I loved and that there is nothing I can do about other than sit back and watch this disastrous catastrophe happen and-

"E, eat something. If your brains are going to turn that hard you should at least add some fuel to the fire." Benny pulled me out of my train of thought.

" Right. Sorry." I said. I took a slice of the pizza and sat a by the window. I stared into nothingness just the dark purple sky that covered everything in its path. I felt the floor move under me. The familiar scent of cologne filled my nose.

"Ethan? What's wrong since Sarah left you have been very....distant. Is there anything I can do?" Benny asked me.

Keep it together E. You got this. Don't explode your emotions on him. It has been an emotional night.

I took a deep breath in and exhaled it slowly.

" I'm fine. Today has been taxing on me. I guess I am just tired."

" I know when you're tried. What is eating away at you?" He asked again.

Well for starters, the fact that I had a vision of seeing you die, then seeing you all hush hush with Sarah and close with her, and that finally oh yeah I am madly in love with you.

" The fact that.... Um....We didn't play my new video game like we said we would. " I said

" Is that all?" He pulled my face closer to his. His eyes were scanning mine to make sure that I was really telling the truth. I melted in his touch. His chocolatey brown eyes held me captive. Involuntarily I started to slowly lean in.

"Yea " I whispered.

" Great. Let's play that new game then" He smiled and pulled away from me. He messed up my hair like usual and got up and moved to the tv in my room.

My heart was racing. I can't believe I almost tried kissed my best friend. I let my guard down. I-

" Whatever is on your mind it can wait. We have a marathon to complete."

"Yeah sure."

We played for hours. Benny kept beating me.

"Well that was fun" He stretched showing just a little of his stomach. He checked his watch.

" Dang is that the time? I should head out."

I nodded. What is wrong with me? A few hours ago I was fine but now my stupid jealousy has put me in this weird state and I hate it.

"--Ethan?"

" Huh?"

" I asked if we were still on for tommorow's continuation of me kicking your but"

Just put your feelings to the side.

"You're on" I smiled

" There is my Ethan." He beamed

I walked him to the door. He stopped before leaving.

" Hey I know that today was weird and I'm sorry about that."

" It's not your fault. I mean we are always fighting demons, vampires and the such-"

"Yeah but-"

"Don't worry about it" I gave him a half hearted smile, " Now leave or your grandma will kill you"

He gave me a small wave and walked down the street to his grandma's house. I slide down the door and sat on the ground. I thought about the day and how it turned out. It was all fun and games until I saw that vision of Benny's 'Death', until I got jealous of Sarah and Benny, until I almost kissed Benny. Now we are at this point of the day the end, and I feel so lonely. This day has been my fault. It's all my fault.