A Thousand Years

Tell it like it is

Song:redbone-dontcry

Ethan's POV

Not having Benny at school, really sucks. Especially during finals. After Rory 'dropped-out,' I have no one to study with. I am too 'nerdy' to study with the nerds and to 'smart' to study with the 'scholars'. Why did I even show up today? I have better things to do than sulk at school, I could be sulking in the comfort of my bed. I could be cursing in the wind about how the love of my life is keeping secrets from me, keeping me at arm's length and how much I hate it. Then it donned on me that we still have to finish our campaign from the other night. Does he still remember that we planned to finish the campaign tonight? If he does come over would it be a repeat of last night? Should I text him to remind him? Would that make me come across as needy? My train of thought was cut short after tripping over someone's textbooks. Like...WHO LEAVES TEXTBOOKS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY.  

"Oh sorry about that man," said their owner " I didn't think that anyone was around."

"YOU DIDN'T THINK THAT ANYONE WOULD BE AROUND? IT'S EXAM SEASON" I thought 

"Just be careful next time," I grumbled. "Stupid brain, stupid benny making me not pay attention" 

"Um hey wait up," The voice called out.

"What?" I asked a bit impatiently. I just wanted to leave school. 

" I think we are in the same biology class and I am having a hard time understanding the study package could you help me with it?" He sheepishly asked, " I would ask the others but they all would have told me to come to you."

" I was just heading out. So..." I drawled.

"Oh, no worries if you can't I mean..." He went on and on and on.  Way to guilt-trip someone. I groaned internally and look at my watch.  1:45 pm. Why is time moving so slowly?

" Fine, I can help you but only for a little bit" I sighed. 

 " That's great," he said, "Oh I don't think I properly introduced myself I am Edward." 

" Ethan. But you already knew that" 

He extended his hand to shake.  As I shook his hand I saw a  cloudy vision of him painfully transforming into an ... I don't know what and something else. It was almost as if someone put up a shield around it so that I couldn't see whatever it was. 

"You good?"He asked his voice pulling me back from my vision.

" Uh, yeah I'm good. Let's hit those books." 

I studied with Edward for an hour and I have never been so frustrated in my entire life. This man is so dunce I think the dunce cap was maned after him.  We spent the hour reviewing the bonds in proteins, the anatomy of a pig and the taxonomic ranks. I have never seen someone care less about school than him. Even Rory tries when he goes to classes.

"One last time," I sighed  " What is the order of the taxonomic ranks? You can use the abbreviation I taught you."

He took a deep breath. "Okay it was Dead Kittens Play Catch On Father's Grave Stone*," He screwed his eyes tight trying to remember each letter "It's Domain, Kingdom, Phylum, Class, Order, Genus, Species?" 

" You got it right!" I was proud that something stuck during our study session. He seemed proud of himself for remembering that.

My phone lit up. It was a message from Benny. I felt my face light up and smile creeping.

B- Hey E I don't think I can come over tonight something came up but we will finish that game tomorrow I promise :)

I re-read his message. He blew me off. Does he have any idea of how much I was looking forward to this? I was mad. My mind raced a mile a minute. Was I hurt? Maybe Was I mad? Most definitely Was I jealous that he could be blowing me off to spend more time with Jesse who is the worst? Or was he blowing me off to hang out with Sarah because the two of them actually liked each other but didn't want to ruin our friendship? That seems plausible but far fetched. Could I possibly be making up random assumptions so that I could cope with Benny blowing me off? I think so.

"Hey, are you okay? You haven't said anything in a while," Edward shook me with a concerned look.

"Yeah. Sorry but I have to go but here's my number if you need some more study materials," I said giving him my number.

"Thanks," He smiled "I'll text you if I have any more bio questions or anything" 

I nodded and headed out of the library.  I took the long way home to clear my head and absentmindedly walked straight to Benny's front door.  'What am I even doing  here?' I thought. I wanted to confront him about him ditching me, him acting weird around me, I just wanted to talk.' Ethan this is just too much. You have gone overboard. You can't show up at his house when he doesn't want to hang out with you.' 

 I sighed. Maybe I just get too consumed with things. I turned to leave his house when I saw him with Sarah. The looked deep in conversation. I watched as my fear played out in front of me. She took his hands in hers.  She touched his face. He shied away. She leaned up and kissed him on the cheek. He held her hand on his cheek and leaned into it. He looked up and saw me and his eyes widened. 

I was stuck in place. Like glass, my heart shattered. I was right about him and Sarah. When my senses kicked in I ran off his porch, hopped his fence and ran home feeling like such an idiot.

A/N: Hi all sorry for this long chapter and the delay on the last chapter. I had some family stuff to deal with but it's all good now. Thanks for reading and your support of this story :)  
(* this is how I remembered that in highschool)