I stare at her
Her character drawing me in
Her silence comfortable
And her speech sensible
The merry in her eyes creating a comfort in me
She is like a puzzle I want to piece together
Like a maze and as I get closer am scared I will get lost
I think of every way that loving you would be tantalizing
I weigh between the options of telling you
Telling you that I love you
Telling you that I have this strong like vice longing for you
And every single neuron in my body itches for you
Even just a frail bit of you
When you helped me with the game
I had this strong urge to turn and kiss you.
I still cannot forget when we accidentally held hands
The way your smile drives my knees weak
With my thoughts twisting it to mean something else
And am stuck
Stuck here in this world I have created
A world where we both like each other ,only scared to tell
A world that would have a forever of us
But am afraid it's only a hallucination
A fragment of thought that needs torching.
But assuming it was not that way
I keep asking is it lust or love?
Would it be a permanent or a temporary
Cause darling am tired of tempos
Would it be this tantalizing everyday
I bend the metacarpals as I silently pray,
She is, she isn't,not tell me
I beg the higher powers to let this be right
To let this be it
To let me out of this torture
The torture that's driving me into insomnia
The torture that takes away my desire for food
I desire for the rules to change and favor me
But then the truth is these feelings are sin
We would be sin
A contraindication to the right
A path to death
My wrists are cranking at this too
How the fingers that type this itch to pass through your hair
How this heart longs to give you a permanent place
But this heart knows better
It knows to keep away
It has been trained to act cold
It has learnt to run
Seeking a safe refuge before it's pieces are scattered again
To hide it's stupidity before the foolishness is exposed
Love is ...
I do not know anymore
Honestly
But you make me feel so vulnerable
I long to have every minute with you
But still I battle within
She is , she is not , not tell me.
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Inbred Fire
RandomA young girl tries to understand who she is when she finds herself having feelings that she does not understand. As she tries to make light of them she comes up with these few short stories some in poetic form while others are just plain stories on...
