Look at me

Look what you made me do

"Mark... I-I think I might be... g-gay"

His voice trailing off at the end of his words. He locks eyes with Mark again.

"What do you mean your gay? Ethan you... you have a girlfriend" his voice cracks letting out some pain in his words.

"Yeah I know"

He swallows and stands up quickly, starting to walk out the room but is quickly stopped.

"Ethan wait"

He jumps out of his chair and races to meet him. Mark grabs his arm just before he gets out the door.

"What"

Ethan asks, his voice so shaky it comes out as a soft whisper. Mark pulls his arm and turns him around so they're facing each other. Mark places his hands on Ethan's shoulders causing him to look up, his lingering eyes goes back to Marks beautiful bewitching eyes once again.

"What makes you say that? Do you... like someone?"

He asks playfully, teasing him but also somehow sounding serious.

"What makes you think I like someone"

He teased back. Trying to lighten up the "mood".

"Huh I don't know, maybe the fact that your suddenly gay..."

I shudder at his words, how am I supposed to tell him. He sighs before answering...

"I-I think so, but I'm not s-sure"

He says slurring his words, trying desperately to get this over with, and finally get this off his chest.

"Oh so who's the lucky guy"

Mark chuckles, trying to understand where all this is coming from all of a sudden. Ethan darts his eyes away the the corner of the wall and blushes a lot, making sure he avoids his eye contact or he'll make him cave.

"I uh... um ya know... I uh"

He stammers on completely flustered. Mark gets the hint he didn't mean to show in the first place and squeezes his arms.

"Ethan I..."

He looks down and blushes ever so slightly, knowing the true meaning behind his words.

"Stop, don't say anything, I'm just as confused as you are, I... I don't know what's going on anymore"

His voice cracking, his eyes tearing up.

"I don't know what's wrong with me Mark"

He whispers as hot tears start streaming down his face, he starts shaking unable to control his breathing. Mark pulls him into a tight embrace, Ethan's hands ball up into small fists and hugs him back tightly, as he starts uncontrollably sobbing.

"Ethan calm down, breathe"
"Mark you have no idea what it's like~"
"I do"

Mark cuts him off before saying anymore.

"Wha... what"

He stutters.

"Do you seriously think I've never thought about you that way?"

He exhales into a small laugh and blushes

"Well yeah I mean your an amazing guy, you would never give up everything for someone like me, you deserve better trust me"

He laughs off the pain in his words as tears start to form in his eyes again. In a swift motion Mark pushes him against the wall.

"Mark what are yo-"

His words getting cut off my Marks lips on his. After a few seconds Mark pulls back, his hands on either side of Ethan's body pinning him against the wall with no escape.

"...doing"

He heavily breathes out, and blushes more than ever as he looks down to avoid eye contact once again. Ethan felt his lips with his fingers and smirks a little, his whole face now red in embarrassment. Mark slowly lifts up Ethan's chin to face him, and quickly smiles before pressing his lips to his again. This time with more passion and Ethan kissing back as he embraces what's happening in this moment and doesn't let it end.

Mark tickles Ethan's bottom lip with his tongue asking for entry. Ethan accepts and opens his mouth wider, their tongues exploring every part of each others mouths. Mark breathes into him as they match their breathing occasionally coming up for air. Mark pulls away for a second but goes back for more, making sure he cherishes every bit of this amazing moment, that feels as if it could never end.

They've both been waiting for this for so long that they thought it would never happen. They finally pull away as Mark rests his forehead against Ethan's, both of them heavily breathing. He can't believe how good Ethan tastes, he longs for more but holds himself back.

But Ethan quickly comes to his senses and pushes Mark away.

"Oh my god Mark, what did I do?!"