Look at me

Grown up stuff

Marks p.o.v

He watches Ethan leave, then breathes out heavily. He falls back on his bed and covers his face with his hands. "You fucking idiot, you kissed him, really let your emotions get the best of you huh, and for what. You could've chosen a better time Mark. Maybe when you weren't in a relationship" he sighs again, 'well... I mean Ethan had it coming, I just made it easier for him, right? Not for me though, for once you should just put yourself first, instead of others.' He wrestles the voice in his head, a back and forth conversation between himself and his psyche.

"Amy's already on to me, but this... this will push her over the edge. I don't have to tell her about the kiss, right? But then she'll get mad at Ethan and he didn't do anything this is literally all my fault so I have to own up to my mistakes and come clean. For once do something right, and if that's telling Amy then I have to tell her. But am I gay, or Bi, or... how the hell am I supposed to know. I mean did it feel good to kiss him? Yes, it was amazing maybe even better than anyone else I've ever kissed before, it feels really bad to say but it's true, I care about Ethan more than anyone else in my life.

Whenever he got close to me in videos or touched me, my heart would start beating super fast and I never knew why. I felt bad every time I hurt him, and after having to roast him for that video I literally wanted to cry because I didn't mean any of those things I said, I would never want to hurt him in anyway, shape, or form. I..I love him... I love him? Why is it so weird to say that out loud, all I want right now is to be with him, to see him. His cute face and his incredibly delicate pronounced body. Fuck why is life so difficult".

He sits up to see Amy standing in the doorway, tears streaming down her face. "Oh my god Amy I'm so sorry, how long have you been there?" He says surprised and also very scared for this could end very badly. "Long enough to hear everything you said" she says running out the room. "Amy wait" he yells after her. "We can talk about this". She opens the front door and stands there. "Talk about what Mark. The fact that you cheated on me with your best friend, or let's see the fact that your gay, or maybe the fact that you don't love me anymore".

"Amy I... I know your mad and you have every right to be but-". "I'm not mad Mark, I need you to know that, your a good guy, you messed up and your trying to fix it." She let out a big sigh and pinched her nose before continuing. "You're hurt right now, but it will pay off in the future. Sometimes you need to sacrifice your happiness in the moment to be happy later, things will get better Mark, I promise but right now you have to figure out what you have with Ethan first and go from there. I know there's nothing I can do to help but the least I can do is talk some sense into you." She finished and looked back at Mark. 

He was stunned at her words and surprised at how she handled this. 'She is so much more mature than me that's for sure'. "Thank you Amy" he says before she can say anything more. "Of course, now go" she says with a weak smile. "Ok, ok I'm going, bye Amy" he says rushing out the door before she could say anything. 'I'm coming Ethan, I'm coming'.

A/N
Ok so, I know it's been a while, sorry sorry, but I haven't really had much inspiration and I know Amy's usually the bad guy in these story's but she's so nice irl I couldn't, so that's my recap/ excuse lol okie bai シ♡