Dying Free

chapter 4

Surgery day.
Yay!

Booo!!!

I know it will be a bad day the moment I wake up. The pain is worse than it's ever been. I press the button by my bed and an old nurse appears to increase the dose of tramadol that goes through my port.

When I feel a tiny bit better I pick my phone from underneath my pillow and message Jullian to let him know I'm up.

The surgery isn't for another hour so I check my instagram to see that Selena posted a picture of her old stuffed elephant wearing a surgical hat and mask with the description ready to operate on patient 167.

I laugh despite the pain as I like the post and comment that I trust
mr. Sizzles (the elephant) with my life.

Then a knock sounds on my door and Jullian enters with our parents. "Hey bean" he says and leans down to kiss my forehead.

"Mornin' guys" i say.

My dad avoids my eyes at all costs while my mom sends me an encouraging smile full of hope.

I wish I was that hopeful. But I like to think of myself as a realist.
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"The surgery will take about 2 hours".
Dr. Zaurelli informs me and I nod as I start to feel sleepy.

After saying "see you later" to my family Jacob starts to push the bed towards the elevator

As we wait for the elevator to arrive I notice mister seagreen eyes and a boy who looks a lot like a younger version of him looking at me from the common lounge.

Selena waves at me with mr. Sizzles in her arms and I smile at her before my eyes close.

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When I wake up the first thing I notice is I'm not in pain.

"Dude. The drugs must have been strong"! I think as I scan the room for any familiar people. I catch a glimpse of Jullian and my dad outside my room talking with the doctor.

I sigh and close my eyes again knowing they are close.
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Recovery is the worse part of surgery. For the next two weeks I cannot describe the pain I feel. Turns out my body was in shock after surgery so I felt no pain. But once the shock was over. Oh boy.

Two weeks later I can finally say I feel better. Selena is currently on my bed talking to me about her mother's new coat after painting my nails black.

''It felt like touching a cloud. I'm telling you''... the door suddenly opens and Selena stops.

"Sorry to interrupt ladies. But there is a young man outside wishing to speak with you miss Selena". Jacob smiles and Selena gets up to see who it is. Jacob winks at me which confuses me but then he dissapears and mr seagreen eyes comes into view.

"What are you doing here"? I ask frowning and before I can stop myself I've already checked out his outfit. He is wearing black jeans and a maroon hoodie with his school mascot on the front. A tiger that is wearing a crown.

"I wanted to apologize properly and figured that you wouldn't be able to run away if I did it now". He says and shoots me a cocky grin.

My frown grows and I look away from his beautiful face as he   takes a seat on the fold up chair by my bed. "I already forgave you, you shouldn't be here" i say and pull the bed covers up to my chin. to hide the fact that I'm naked apart for the bandages on my chest.

"I caused you to caugh up blood. I thought you were dying" he says and I almost laugh at the though of his face. I wish I could see him then.

"It wasn't your fault. I have lung cancer. The hit just caused me to caugh. The blood just comes with it at this point." i shrug and he tilts his head to the side reminding me of a puppy.