Hate & love

Chapter 25

I have no idea if I even want to live here. I can't be trouble for his family. I barely even talk to them.

What do they even think of me?

That you're weird.

"Stop it."

It's, true.

I hate this, I hate everything. How am I supposed to be happy if my life is horrible.

Everyday something has to happen, and I'm tired of it.

I can't stand it, anymore.

So why me? What did I even do? It was my mom's fault, most likely.

So why do I have to suffer like this? Why do I have to be the psychotic one?

Think about it, one slit, you're dead.

Try it. I would.

Come on, it only takes 1 minute

"I wouldn't have to, I just need you gone."

You can, you have options. Bleach, hang, slit your wrists, maybe neck, O.D , why not?

"I don't know, maybe."

Mmm, I'd drink the bleach, right now.

"No, I don't want to, not now."

Now, you're already worthless. Your dad probably only went to war to be away from an insane 5 year old. Your mom tried killing you everyday, and you know it. Why do you let yourself live knowing you're worthless, you can't escape it?

I'm weak, they took over. Where would they even have anything, I'm treated like a 3 year old in here.

I'll find something.

I went to the bathroom, looking in the cabinet.

Not even asprins. Wow, I'm not surprised.

What about sleeping pills or something, no!

"I don't know what to do."

Get a blade.

"They won't have any, I can't do this." I started breaking down. "I'm sorry."

Do this, take something sharp amd slice your wrists.

"There's nothing SHARP."

Stop breathing, drown yourself in the bath.

"I'm can't, I'd float back after passing out."

Wow, you're dumb, you lay your face down to the bottom and drown.

"Ok, I'll try it, but I'm kinda scared."

I turned the water on filling up the tub, trying to make it seem not too obvious.

When it got to the right height I went in, leaving on my clothes say they could way me down even more.

Bye

"Bye"