Hate & love

Chapter 37

Our table gradually gained more people, and it's a situation like this when you realize how many people are troubled. There really are alot.

As there was really nobody actually having conversations, it was practically silent. I can't stand silence.

"Do you remember that one day. The one where I was stabbed at the park?" I don't even know why I'd say this so bluntly.

"Yeah, it wasn't that long ago." He answered.

"I know, but why would he do that? It seemed surreal." I stir.

"Robber, they don't care who they're dealing with." He replies.

"I guess. How do they know it wasn't you?"

"They might, no one cares though, he stabbed you. Even if thy knew, they'd just think I was being defensive."He scuffs.

"I didn't want to go to a doctor that day. Why did you make me?" I asked.

"You needed to, I didnt want you to bleed out, I didnt want to take the chance. Change the subject."He says sternly.

"Ok. What do you want to talk about?" I say shyly.

"I don't care."He answers.

I don't say anything else. I pick at my meal, looking for something good. It's all too bland.

I close my eyes for a few seconds and open them back up, it's horrible.

It's like a vision from one experiencing sleep paralysis. I couldnt move. I felt something piercing in my back, although I knew nothing was there.

I saw someone, who seemed familiar, but I couldn't tell. They were cover in a thick blanket of dried blood.

Missing an eye, with a bloody hollow socket in its place. The hair matted in mud and crimson liquid.

I wanted to scream, but I couldn't move at all. I could here everything going on outside of this, but my mind focused on this.

"Have you forgotten me?" She asked menacingly.

I tried to answer but that she went away. I snapped out of lucidity, and into the true nightmare.

Nothing like that, but where realization hits that I'm in an asylum.

The tears flow out, and i have no control, I just knew it wouldn't end soon or well.

No one noticed my tears until they heard me sob. The girl across from us noticed me first.

"Are you crying? Why are you crying?" She said in a concerned way.

I couldnt find the words of explaination, and just shook my head.

I had no idea what to say, soon alot of people noticed, mainly the newer people here, it's pretty common for breakdowns here.

Common enough none of the staff came around until it got it a bit out of hand. I didn't mean for anything, I didnt even know that I did something for the first few seconds.

I ended up seeing blood in front of me, and i don't know where it came from, but I felt my lip throbbing.

I bit it too hard and blood gushed out.

I didn't care, my mind still was wary.

They tried to get me to get up. I was still paralyzed. They gave and left me here, it wasn't that bad of an injury to stop everything.

Lunch was over, I was finally able to move again. I stood up and immediately rubbed my red puffy eyes.

It felt like the day had been going on for an eternity Even though I've been only awake for an hour or two.

I ignored everyone who tried talking to me and went back to my room, hopefully I won't be locked in this time.

I laid on my bed and remembered vividly when I was stabbed. My mind just came across that, how I went to a doctor, I hate doctors.

I'm amazed how vividly I can remember that date back to when I was 4. I guess that's my only benefit.

"Why did I see that lady?" I sigh.

The one you've forgotten too soon.

"Who is she? Is she even real?"

You saw her, didn't you? You decide.

"Then it was just a weird hallucination, she's not real."

Suit yourself.

"Be quiet."

I'd rather just talk.

"No, please, no. You're annoying as heck." I complain.

"Have you forgotten? "

The lady stood in front of me.

"Who are you?"

"You've forgotten. That's crude."

"No, I just...who are you?"

"Why have you forgotten me, dear?"

"Because you don't look familiar at all, or sound."

"Please remember."

I started for the door, and ran to somewhere I didn't even no where i was headed.

Thankfully someone saw me running frantically, and came to ask me where i was headed.

"I don't know." I cried. "I just, just, I need help. I guess."

"What happened? " she asked.

"I saw someone with only one eye. And was drenched in blood. But they aren't real. Wow i sound crazier than I am."

"No, I understand." She said kindly.

"Good because she's behind you."