Hate & love

Chapter 28

Loves p.o.v

"Oh, well I'm sorry." I say concerned.

"So, you were trying to kill yourself?" He caught me a little off guard.

I nod, "Ya, I didnt know what else to do."

"You could've got help, you know that."

"Yes, I know, I've heard that from almost everyone who truly knows me. But you don't get it. I see how you have it bad, too, but I have no family left."

"Ok, ok, i think you don't get it. I'm the reason my brother died. I've caused too many deaths. I killed your mom. I'm sorry."

"I don't care that she's dead, she didn't deserve life. But now, who knows where she's at. Does she deserve heaven, after everything she's done. I know I dont."

"Why would you think that, of course you deserve it."

"Because I already am invaded in the core, by demons. Do i really deserve to be set free. After taking in part of a murder, i don't think so."

"I'm the one who actually killed her, okay. You didn't want me to, but I did it. I can't let you think your the one who killed your mom."

"I did, I helped, i stabbed her, earlier before her death. I just want to leave."

"What do you mean?" He sounds mad at me.

"Hey, don't get angry with me, I just want to go back, i don't want to live here. I'm too much work..." I walk and he grabs my shoulder.

"Stop,  wait. Of course you can stay here. My parents don't care, they know you. They like you."

"Why do they like me, I'm just a crazy."

"You helped me. When we met. I couldnt cope with my brothers death, okay. And I developed psychosis, but you already had it. You helped me cope. Thank you."

"I know that much, by why do your parents care, it's not like a cured you." I already knew, i just wanted a bigger explaination.

"Because, they were greatful, i could go back home. They wanted a child, but my brother died, and i went insane. You made it so they could still have half the son they remember."

"I just, i just don't want to be here, do they want to help me, or am I here only for your sake?"

"Your here for you."

"What?" I'm confused.

"I mean, for your sake."

"You're sure?"

"Positive."

"Ok...thanks..." I'm trailing off. "How did you know I was up here?"

"I could here the water. So I came uo, and asked if anyone was in here, and i heard nothing but someone choking on water. So I rushed in." He explains.

"Oh, well thank you, I see now how bad of an idea that was."

It was a good one.

"No it really wasn't." I say.

"What they say?" He asks

"Stupid stuff. They said it was a good idea."

"Mine agreed, that, that was stupid."

"You're lucky, your voices sound funny. Mine are stupid ones."

He laughed, "they're not always nice."

"How so?"

Friday night. Please help me out of here. I'm going to eat chocolate. No you're not. Shush I wanna hear them. I just wish you guys could fly. Xoxo, can be found at school.

"What?" I say aloud while laughing.

"I don't know, what."

"Not you, them" i point at my head.

"Are they fun now?"

"Of course not. "

"Oh, come on, you really need to put on something dry."